Eye Stigmata
Member
I don't know what the problem is... I'm so depressed lately it's disgusting, I feel like I don't even know myself anymore. What is the point in living a life when your so miserable all the time and some days you can't even justify WHY.
I don't know what it is... I think mostly..that I expect so much out of myself and I have such high demands for myself that im constantly letting myself down, to the point where I feel plain useless...
I know it's easy enough to say "take it easy then", but it's not like that. I feel like I need to serve some *great* purpose in my life and that i'm just not making the cut.
I've been so miserable for the last 2 months that I have to motivate myself just to get out of bed in the morning... why can't I just be happy with who I am today? Why do I always compare myself to others? Why do I always push myself so hard to be and say and do all of these *things*...
I've *SI* just about every day for the past 2 months...which isn't "abnormal" for me but..I was hoping that therapy would help lift some of the every day stress off my shoulders and allow me to atleast some what heal... I guess not... I feel like giving up on Therapy, I feel like my therapist thinks I'm a total nut case...and because I cry every single session..I'm starting to believe I probably am...
Just had to get that off my chest....*sigh*... someday i'll find that light at the end of the tunnel...and it will be wonderful..
I don't know what it is... I think mostly..that I expect so much out of myself and I have such high demands for myself that im constantly letting myself down, to the point where I feel plain useless...
I know it's easy enough to say "take it easy then", but it's not like that. I feel like I need to serve some *great* purpose in my life and that i'm just not making the cut.
I've been so miserable for the last 2 months that I have to motivate myself just to get out of bed in the morning... why can't I just be happy with who I am today? Why do I always compare myself to others? Why do I always push myself so hard to be and say and do all of these *things*...
I've *SI* just about every day for the past 2 months...which isn't "abnormal" for me but..I was hoping that therapy would help lift some of the every day stress off my shoulders and allow me to atleast some what heal... I guess not... I feel like giving up on Therapy, I feel like my therapist thinks I'm a total nut case...and because I cry every single session..I'm starting to believe I probably am...
Just had to get that off my chest....*sigh*... someday i'll find that light at the end of the tunnel...and it will be wonderful..
