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Melon Collie

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I am in my 40?s. I have a family: a mother a husband and two children. Yet when I?m depressed I have no one I can talk to.

I haven?t had a paying job for about twelve years. I try to be satisfied with my life as it is but somehow I feel like I?m not living up to my potential. As if doing my best to raise my children well isn?t a worthwhile pursuit. And then I start feeling guilty for feeling this way. When I think about the past I just feel angry and resentful and sucked into a black hole of negativity. I?ve lost all my friends probably because I?m no fun to be around when I?m depressed. And it?s too much effort to make new ones.

My family is the reason why I get up every day. They make me do it because they need me to get them off to work and school. How I wish I could just stay in bed all day long. All WINTER long would be even better. I hate winter with a passion. Why can?t humans hibernate anyways?

I was discharged by my psychiatrist because I was stable on my meds and my family doctor could handle the repeats. Of course he said that if I start having problems I could call the office to make an appointment to come back. But I don?t feel like calling. I don?t want to bother him unless absolutely necessary.

I came across this site when I was looking for someone to talk to about my feelings and somewhere safe to vent. Of course I am also interested in learning from others? experiences and healing. But I was wondering if it is possible to get better without knowing what the illness is. I don?t think I have ever been told an official diagnosis (just given scripts for Prozac and Lithium).
 
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Jazzey

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Welcome to Psychlinks :)

I think it may be a good idea for you to call your doctor. You're not bothering him, that's what he's there to for, see that you're healthy both mentally and physically.

Have you ever tried CBT? Have you ever considered seeing a psychologist?
 
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Hello Mel, and welcome to Psychlinks. We're happy you found us and hopefully the experience and insights of our members may be of some assistance.

Winter is often a difficult time not only because of the temps but also for some people the decreased amount of sunlight causes depressed mood. Doctors refer to this disorder as Seasonal Affect Disorder and is often treated with special light boxes that simulate sunlight exposure.

Your psychiatrist can help if indeed that is part of your diagnosis.

If you feel you are struggling with mood, never hesitate to call your doctor, as he requested, because this is exactly the kind of situation your doctor is concerned about for you.

Your doctor is your mental health care consultant, whose job it is to provide you with the care and support you need with your mood disorder.

You probably wouldn't hesitate to call the plumber if you had a dripping faucet, waiting until you had a flood in the kitchen!

Same idea in this case, Mel...you would be acting pro-actively to seek help early when you detect your mood to be not just right.

Treatment is more complex if you wait until you are in crisis.

Go ahead and make the call!
 
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forgetmenot

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Hi welcome to Psychlinks I seem to hibernating these days winter is very hard when one is not feeling up to par. I think calling your psychiatrist is a good idea maybe your medication needs to be adjusted he or she will know. Also get a diagnosis for what you are suffering now
In order to take care of your family you need to be well and strong right. Give your doctor a call and see if you can get feeling better. Nice to have you here.:)
 
Into The Light

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welcome mellon collie :wave4: i would say go ahead and call, too. my therapist is always telling me she'd much rather have me tell her early on than struggle through, so that we can deal with problems early and nip them in the bud before they become full blown and get out of hand and much more difficult to work on. it makes sense to not wait until things become a crisis.

again welcome to psychlinks :)
 
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Murray

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Hi Melon Collie,
Welcome to psychlinks! I am sure you will find this to be a wonderful site with many incredibly supportive and generous members (as I most certainly have). I completely agree with the above posts. Your doctor is there for you and you should definitely call if you are struggling.
 
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Andy

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Welcome Melon Collie:beer2:

I agree too. I understand the feeling of being a "bother" to your psychiatrist as I feel like that sometimes to, but that is what they are paid for, if they didn't have people "bothering"them then they wouldn't have a job, right? Plus your psychiatrist would much rather see you before you got to feeling bad then see you back at square one.

As far as not knowing your diagnosis, personally I have been in this situation too, and I have been told "what does it matter what diagnosis you have, it's just a label". I tend to disagree with that, it doesn't matter in the way of treatment, but it does matter to put a name to what your going through or may have. If someone had say cancer but no one would tell them what kind of cancer, it would be rather upsetting not knowing, In my opinion anyway.
I say ask your psychiatrist when you make that appointment with him;).
 
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Melon Collie

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Thanks for the welcomes everyone, here and by PM.

I think I am ready to make some changes in my approach to recovery. Of course, I will seek immediate medical attention if self-harm feelings arise but for now I am researching CBT and will be looking for a therapist in my area. I may also consider buying a dawn simulator to see if it helps any.
 
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