Will I ever feel better on the inside???

[secendart]

I cant remember when the last time I was excited to get up in morning. It was either, not another day, or here I go again, or this gig sux!! The only reason why its not over is I believe there is some thing I must do before my time is up...

I see alot of ppl die on the News, an accident or a gunshot victum. What intrests me is that I actually say "luck bastard"!?!?

I've got a dead end job, I dont have friends, not really interested in any relationships, infact if someone comes along I subcontiously ruin it by emotionally push them away. Somtimes I wonder why I torment my soul so much...

Its been more or less of the same thing for years now... Some times I feel Im aready dead and ending it wouldn't make any difference. I'd probably feel the same way then too.

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[Retired]

Have you ever discussed your feelings with your family physician, spiritual advisor or other trusted professional?

Do you have access to mental health services in your area?

 

[Daniel E.]

A therapist, for example, would challenge your negative thinking and hopelessness that has accumulated over time.

Regarding socialization, small steps can help. In the psychological novel The Schopenhauer Cure, a loner (Philip) starts socializing by going to group therapy and joining a chess club.

 

[secendart]

I did visit a local clinic a couple of days ago. I told the Dr. how I felt but all she did was ask me if I wanted anti-depressants. I told her I wanted to see a therapist, but all she gave me was a pamphlet and told me I should get a blood test.

I guess she didn't really believe me cuz I didn't really show it. Maybe I supress my depression or put on an act when im around ppl. Do you know of any therapists in toronto? I'll have a look at the book too.

Thank you

 

[David Baxter PhD]

I do know of one who is excellent, secendart.

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