braveheart
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I have Complex PTSD.
Right now I am battling inside again with the 'voice' that says my traumas aren't legitimate, that I didn't suffer enough to warrant the intensity of my symptoms now. That others have suffered far more.
But, the reality is that my symptoms make total sense in the context of all the traumas and emotional neglect/deprivations that happened to me as a child and teen, from birth up.
And part of me knows that. And can accept that compassionately.
And can read Judith Herman's 'Trauma and Recovery' and nod and cry..
But there's that other voice that shoves the DSM in my face and says my traumas mean nothing.
*sigh*
I wish I could just tell this voice to shove off and leave me alone.
But its like it needs written proof that me, my illness, and my past exists/ed.
Right now I am battling inside again with the 'voice' that says my traumas aren't legitimate, that I didn't suffer enough to warrant the intensity of my symptoms now. That others have suffered far more.
But, the reality is that my symptoms make total sense in the context of all the traumas and emotional neglect/deprivations that happened to me as a child and teen, from birth up.
And part of me knows that. And can accept that compassionately.
And can read Judith Herman's 'Trauma and Recovery' and nod and cry..
But there's that other voice that shoves the DSM in my face and says my traumas mean nothing.
*sigh*
I wish I could just tell this voice to shove off and leave me alone.
But its like it needs written proof that me, my illness, and my past exists/ed.