Believe!

[Ashley-Kate]

Too often when i was deep in the disorder i would base my happyness on what other people would accomplish. If they could help me, if they said the right words, if they did the right things, then al of the suddeni would be a happier person.

I realise now that that mentality was probably not helpfull because i gave up on my own power to affect change in my life and relied on everyone else. Part of my eating disorder was having control over my life yet when it came to geting over the eating disorder i was expecting people to control my happyness, yet i refused to let anyone control me.. the hole thing contradicts my own personnality, being someone that needs controle i should have known that i was going to control myself into getting better! every day is a struggle maybe it wil get easier one day but i have to stay aware of the chances i relapse and or have more hard days, but no one else wil get us out of this we are the ones that control our decision on weather we are ready to get better or not quite!

believing in yourself is a valuable tool in recovery never forget that if you were able to fight to maintain the disorder than you are capable of fighting to rid yourself of it as well! If you can put your hand through fire you can take it out as well!

love you all!
-xxx-

 

[Jazzey]

Hi Ash,
Having dealt with anorexia in my life I can agree with everything you've said here. Start by loving yourself first, and putting yourself first in the order of priorities...Your first order of priorities should be getting better - first and foremost.

The rest you can resolve as you gain strength and experience of life...We can't always control everything in our lives - ever...but, we can control to some extent, how we feel about ourselves...

Take good care of yourself (always first Ash). :hug: :hug: (and sending you love back Ash)

 

[Ashley-Kate]

i am enjoying my new found knowledge of the disorder, well i always knew what i do but i never thought about it in the sence that it counted to me. i would tell all my friends ( the girls i met at the hospital) all this good advice but it never applied to me i have had it though now! i am liviing my life the way i always wanted and i am going to fight every day to have the best life i can

 

[Jazzey]

Proud of you Ash. It takes a lot of work, but I can see that you have that strength in you. I don't doubt for an instant that you will do what's necessary to get there.

Feel free to lean on me when you need it. I'm always lurking around this place .

 

[Mari]

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