Ashley-Kate
MVP
Hello to all,
It's been a little while since i was here i thought i would let you all know whats up. I ended up back in hospital again, only for 5 weeks in a day program as well. I took myself out of the program before the end due to issues that had nothing to do with the treatment itself.
I am currently in a relationship it's been 4 months already. I struggled after the program but for the last 4 weeks I have been better than ever.
I decided to send an application to a humanitarian trip that starts in June and last 6 months. I have no clue if i will be one of the candidates chosen. Ever since I made this decision I feel lighter. I feel happy, proud even of myself, and finally proud of something I chose to do that isn't remaining in the eating disorder.
I decided to start intensive therapy as well to deal with the PTSD that i was diagnosed with before leaving and I try my very best to eat every day. So far I have succeeded and the only reason I have a hard time is I haven't gotten around to fitting meal time in my schedule. I am doing so good, going out at least once a week with friends for drinks, restaurant with my boyfriend at least once a week as well, going to the movies as well something I could never do before. I realize today I love it. I no longer weigh myself and I am satisfied with my weight.
I was with my psychiatrist yesterday and while talking to her she mentioned body image and the need to lose weight and i realized then that it's not me anymore. I don't need to lose weight. I actually like me the way I am. If I lose more I will be ok and if I gain a bit more I will still be ok. I have come to terms with a healthy weight and no longer fear it.
Anyway just thought I would let you all know! I may come around a little less now but then again I enjoy helping others so you may see more of me still.
Thank you all!
It's been a little while since i was here i thought i would let you all know whats up. I ended up back in hospital again, only for 5 weeks in a day program as well. I took myself out of the program before the end due to issues that had nothing to do with the treatment itself.
I am currently in a relationship it's been 4 months already. I struggled after the program but for the last 4 weeks I have been better than ever.
I decided to send an application to a humanitarian trip that starts in June and last 6 months. I have no clue if i will be one of the candidates chosen. Ever since I made this decision I feel lighter. I feel happy, proud even of myself, and finally proud of something I chose to do that isn't remaining in the eating disorder.
I decided to start intensive therapy as well to deal with the PTSD that i was diagnosed with before leaving and I try my very best to eat every day. So far I have succeeded and the only reason I have a hard time is I haven't gotten around to fitting meal time in my schedule. I am doing so good, going out at least once a week with friends for drinks, restaurant with my boyfriend at least once a week as well, going to the movies as well something I could never do before. I realize today I love it. I no longer weigh myself and I am satisfied with my weight.
I was with my psychiatrist yesterday and while talking to her she mentioned body image and the need to lose weight and i realized then that it's not me anymore. I don't need to lose weight. I actually like me the way I am. If I lose more I will be ok and if I gain a bit more I will still be ok. I have come to terms with a healthy weight and no longer fear it.
Anyway just thought I would let you all know! I may come around a little less now but then again I enjoy helping others so you may see more of me still.
Thank you all!
