stargazer
Member
Is there a term or specific treatment for a person who is often too self-conscious or embarrassed to find the motivation to take needful and postive steps toward better circumstances and situations?
The reason I ask is, that's me. It took me a long time, for example, to get over a couple of minorly bad experience to re-advertise my music transcription service on an Internet list where I had gotten about five clients in the past. I finally did so this weekend, and got a number of responses, one of which turned out to be a promising client.
When I first e-mailed her back, I wrote in the wrong phone number, putting my last year's number down by mistake. So I had to follow up with an immediate second e-mail.
She replied this morning, and when I put my new fax number down (I just got it yesterday) I put the wrong prefix by mistake, so again had to follow up with an immediate second e-mail.
So now I am embarrassed and self-conscious again, and concerned that I will not be able to proceed with the job with self-confidence. (I did, incidentally, finally create a signature with all the correct phone & fax numbers and other information, to use on business e-mails.)
It also alarms me how slow I am to re-advertise in certain areas where I fear my reputation might be shot. Almost invariably, I find that my reputation is *not* shot. A number of people may have had bad individual experiences with me, but they don't speak for the entire group concensus.
Also at work now, I'm in trouble, and I may have to leave my job and look for something better and more suitable for me. But I lack confidence that I can present myself in a positive way.
I wasn't like this in the South Bay, the recent children's theatre job, but look what happened. It almost seems as though there is no middle ground. I walk around town wondering if everyone is looking at me, and laughing at me, and I just can't find the self-esteem I need in order to succeed anymore.
The reason I ask is, that's me. It took me a long time, for example, to get over a couple of minorly bad experience to re-advertise my music transcription service on an Internet list where I had gotten about five clients in the past. I finally did so this weekend, and got a number of responses, one of which turned out to be a promising client.
When I first e-mailed her back, I wrote in the wrong phone number, putting my last year's number down by mistake. So I had to follow up with an immediate second e-mail.
She replied this morning, and when I put my new fax number down (I just got it yesterday) I put the wrong prefix by mistake, so again had to follow up with an immediate second e-mail.
So now I am embarrassed and self-conscious again, and concerned that I will not be able to proceed with the job with self-confidence. (I did, incidentally, finally create a signature with all the correct phone & fax numbers and other information, to use on business e-mails.)
It also alarms me how slow I am to re-advertise in certain areas where I fear my reputation might be shot. Almost invariably, I find that my reputation is *not* shot. A number of people may have had bad individual experiences with me, but they don't speak for the entire group concensus.
Also at work now, I'm in trouble, and I may have to leave my job and look for something better and more suitable for me. But I lack confidence that I can present myself in a positive way.
I wasn't like this in the South Bay, the recent children's theatre job, but look what happened. It almost seems as though there is no middle ground. I walk around town wondering if everyone is looking at me, and laughing at me, and I just can't find the self-esteem I need in order to succeed anymore.