Chronic pain - I can`t take living like this..

[Hunter]

honestly...I am not able to take this chronic pain anymore....my life is not worth living...I cry morning, noon, and night...and I am wanting to end this all...The pain is from not one but three serious motor vehicle accidents, the worst being the latest in 2009. I had to go live in a rehabilitation clinic for 7 months, because I was injured so severely...I worked and worked at therapy so I could return home to my family to my life...but since then I have been in chronic pain everyday....I can`t live like this anymore..I don`t know what to do...

I have tried, physiotherapy, massage therapy, exercise therapy, occupational therapy, acupuncture, chiropractor, tens, suction cup therapy, hot stone massage therapy, traction therapy, what more can I try.

I do admit that I found some temporary relief from deep tissue massage, but three days later I am in the same constant agonizing pain...I take oxycontin for pain...but am not able to take this during the day at work, as it leaves me too groggy... My doctor has asked me many many times to stop work and go on long term disability...sure I have insurance that will pay me my 100% wages while I am not working for the rest of my life ....but I love my job, adore the people I work with. I love the people I meet at work, frankly it is rare to find a job that they love, but I have and I want to stay there. Most days on my breaks, I retreat to the bathroom where I cry out in pain and slam my fist against the wall begging for something or someone to help alleviate this pain, but nothing... If I were to die tomorrow that would almost be ok with me, because of the pain that I am in..

By no means am I suicidal or want to die, it is just that I seriously can`t take the pain anymore..

Can someone please offer me any help or guidance as to what I can do. or if they are experiencing chronic pain...please please take the time to tell me what has worked for you..

I have an amazing husband and three dogs who I love more than anything in the world, but my life, their lives are being affected by my pain.. I am not able to walk them anymore, I am not able to go out to functions anymore because I am in too much pain...Each day is a struggle for me, but I still go to work, when it gets to be more than I can take, I take a day off work but try not to...

I thank you in advance....for any and all suggestions

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I just want to add the pain is from a Grade 2 Whiplash and Thorac injury - as well as rotator cup injury -

 

[forgetmenot]

Re: Chronic pain - i can`t take living like this.....i want to overdose and end the p

Is there a pain clinic in your hospital that you can go to . Pain specialist can teach you other ways to cope with your pain they deal with chronic pain and are able to help people move pass the pain they are feeling Have you seen a neurologist as well hun who can prescribe medication that can decrease pain caused by nerve damage

Perhaps taking some time off work until the pain lessens some or decrease the amount of time you do work Hugs

 

[David Baxter PhD]

I have tried, physiotherapy, massage therapy, exercise therapy, occupational therapy, acupuncture, chiropractor, tens, suction cup therapy, hot stone massage therapy, traction therapy, what more can I try.

In addition to what forgetmenot has said, there are psychologists who specialize in behavioral and cognitive behavioral management of chronic pain. Ask for a referral to one in your area.

More information:

Managing Chronic Pain: A Cognitive-Behavioral Therapy Approach

http://www.hkpainsociety.org/may07 workshop slides/cbt evidence.pdf

http://www.amazon.com/dp/0195329171/?tag=psychlinks05-20

Cognitive behavioural approaches to chronic pain

 

[Hunter]

Thanks for the advice.

I went to the hospital and was told that the wait would be about 12 hours. I went home and called the ambulance, they were there and took me into the hospital room in less than 30 minutes. I was in crying agonzing pain, and I told the ER doctor this has been going on off and on for three years, but the last month has gotten so much worse that all I want to do is take a overdose of pain meds and end it all, even though I have so much to live for..

He was awesome he listened to me. Took xrays did other tests and bloodwork, you name it I was poked and prodded. but for once I did not mind it at all. All I wanted was some relief....When he did all that he could do, and gave me pain meds for the day and I will continue with the oxyneo for the night...he had me talk to a mental health professional from the mental health unic, he was also caring and kind. We had a good talk a really good in depth talk. I told him how in the last four years I have lost 24 family members, friends, and co-workers as well as my psychologist who we had made such good progress. He agreed that some of my pain was most likely tension from grief...and some from me having rheumatoid arthritis..not to mention whiplash from three seperate motor vehicle accidents. So then I was prescribed some more meds to help me cope with everything.

He had asked me to become a patient for at least 72 hours so that they could monitor me and my pain. I said I would stay overnight and see how that went. They intravenous pain meds they gave me totally removed all the pain that I had in me, for once I felt normal.. I am staying there again tonight and most likely will go home tomorrow. I did agree to be a out patient where I will come in and they will monitor my meds and my pain, and I am happy about this progress. Worst case scenario is that I will take one week off, the doctor wanted me off indefinitely but as long as they can control my pain, I want to continue with my life. But I also know that if I need to be off work, that I will take it off. I have to try not to be disrespectful of my own health, just because I am trying so hard to be normal and work and do all the home life things that are needed.

So it was a better day today, glad that I reached out. Thanks David for sending the videos, they convinced me that I cant do this on my own. Thanks to forgetmenot for the kind words. Appreciate that.

 

[jasmine30]

Hi Hunter,

I see you've posted this a few years ago.

But, I'm so sorry to hear you're struggling. Maybe you've found something that works since posting this.

Personally, I've found that actipatch is really helpful, I have chronic hip pain from being a professional dancer. I've tried pain meds, which made me feel loopy, i've tried steroid injections ...they are painful and didn't help much.

I saw actipatch on amazon and thought that id give it a try...it's like this wire with a sticker that you put on the area and it sends vibrations to the area that hurts. it did relieve pain for a few hours.

maybe this will help...hope you're okay...