I'm having problems controling the urge to cut. Its always been the one for sure way to numb out. I didn't cut for a long time but lossing the baby has really messed me up. Now the feelings are to overwhelming. Any feeling is,even if it has nothing to do with Alexys. I'm on meds for bipolar but I haven't been on them long enough for them to help. It's been about 3 weeks since I've cut but once again the urge is building and becoming uncontrolable I hate this but the longer I wait without cutting the more suicidal I become. the cutting seems to stop the suicidal impluses so....