BattleBack
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I've taken IQ tests and consistently scored around the 148 range. But I don't see this as any kind of 'bragging right', please believe me.
I should be more successful than I am, because I have the capacity hardwired, (so to speak). But I read an article once that said something about successful people have both a high analytical IQ and a high emotional IQ, and that while the 'hardwired' IQ results/points can only be minimally affected, the emotional IQ is more plastic. This article got me thinking and wishing I could hand in my analytical IQ for a high emotional one. I'd do it in a heart beat. Since I can't, I want to figure out some way to gain a better emotional environment internally. Because right now it's pretty bad.
When I get stressed beyond toleration, I snap sometimes. In social situations I'm pretty good at avoiding anyone or anything I think might get under my skin too much. That's the problem with anger. It makes me want to avoid so much, especially people. I dread the idea of hurting anyone else who doesn't deserve an over-the-top response from me.
I don't know folks...lately it's just bad and I don't think going into any details about this day to day experience would be much more than one long, negative, bleak, and certainly anger infused novella.
How do you cope when you feel really dark and don't have anyone to talk to and maybe even fear saying anything out loud about it? I hate to admit this, but I think some really dark stuff sometimes and feel like if I said anything about it to a T, they'd panic and start throwing Rx's at me or label me in some way that isn't correct (imho). I don't need that. I know it's only clinical, but emotionally it feels like a type of verbal abuse. Like being called names.
I've thought about returning to therapy but my trust issues are so intense I don't know if it would be possible. This doubt emphasizes my thinking that maybe my emotional IQ just isn't ever going to be adjusted to the better like I wish it were.
Well, wish in one hand and poop in the other...:lol:
I should be more successful than I am, because I have the capacity hardwired, (so to speak). But I read an article once that said something about successful people have both a high analytical IQ and a high emotional IQ, and that while the 'hardwired' IQ results/points can only be minimally affected, the emotional IQ is more plastic. This article got me thinking and wishing I could hand in my analytical IQ for a high emotional one. I'd do it in a heart beat. Since I can't, I want to figure out some way to gain a better emotional environment internally. Because right now it's pretty bad.
When I get stressed beyond toleration, I snap sometimes. In social situations I'm pretty good at avoiding anyone or anything I think might get under my skin too much. That's the problem with anger. It makes me want to avoid so much, especially people. I dread the idea of hurting anyone else who doesn't deserve an over-the-top response from me.
I don't know folks...lately it's just bad and I don't think going into any details about this day to day experience would be much more than one long, negative, bleak, and certainly anger infused novella.
How do you cope when you feel really dark and don't have anyone to talk to and maybe even fear saying anything out loud about it? I hate to admit this, but I think some really dark stuff sometimes and feel like if I said anything about it to a T, they'd panic and start throwing Rx's at me or label me in some way that isn't correct (imho). I don't need that. I know it's only clinical, but emotionally it feels like a type of verbal abuse. Like being called names.
I've thought about returning to therapy but my trust issues are so intense I don't know if it would be possible. This doubt emphasizes my thinking that maybe my emotional IQ just isn't ever going to be adjusted to the better like I wish it were.
Well, wish in one hand and poop in the other...:lol:
