So I'm sure people have posted with similar problems before, but I may as well explain my own situation as sometimes certain elements may be unique. Essentially though, I am having a bit of an identity crisis to some degree...it was actually just recently I met someone the polar opposite of me...very sure of themselves, and it made me realize how far I was from that.
I put forth a significant amount of effort into psycho analyzing the people I engage with on a day to day basis; find out what makes them tick (if you want to put it that way). Fortunately for myself this works extremely well for working relationships, and I've generally been extremely well liked at work by almost everyone. What I realized is that it really wasn't a case of them liking me after they got to know me, it was a case of them liking me after I got to know them, and figure out exactly how to act around them for the most postive reaction possible.
Needless to say this causes more then a little bit of stress being around people, especially large groups when your trying to monitor the more subtle reactions people give to various comments or actions. But that's really another issue as far as I'm concerned. The main problems for myself most prominently surface when trying to interact with those of the opposite sex, I end up being a bit of "blank" personality during those first few closer encounters (a date for example), as I'm moreso just trying to probe the other person for information trying to figure them out so I know how to act.
Now the simple solution suggested to me by a friend was "be yourself" which kind of brought me to this point, which is that, who am I? Problem is I'm not sure. Having spent so much time and effort trying to be what everyone else is looking for I don't really know what I would act like if I were to just stop worrying about what other people thought. It seems every action I take has always had a purpose; to alter someone's perception of me, to shape their view of me to exactly what I want it to be.
If your not 100% understanding, the simplest example I can give is a real life job interview, fortunately I'm extremely good at them, because I anticipate the questions well, and have a very good understanding of what they are looking for, and what they want to hear. They always ask questions, but are looking for more then just the answer. You can credit most girls for being more complex then an HR manager though, as I generally have a difficult time figuring them out.
Either way I hope this makes sense to someone here.
I put forth a significant amount of effort into psycho analyzing the people I engage with on a day to day basis; find out what makes them tick (if you want to put it that way). Fortunately for myself this works extremely well for working relationships, and I've generally been extremely well liked at work by almost everyone. What I realized is that it really wasn't a case of them liking me after they got to know me, it was a case of them liking me after I got to know them, and figure out exactly how to act around them for the most postive reaction possible.
Needless to say this causes more then a little bit of stress being around people, especially large groups when your trying to monitor the more subtle reactions people give to various comments or actions. But that's really another issue as far as I'm concerned. The main problems for myself most prominently surface when trying to interact with those of the opposite sex, I end up being a bit of "blank" personality during those first few closer encounters (a date for example), as I'm moreso just trying to probe the other person for information trying to figure them out so I know how to act.
Now the simple solution suggested to me by a friend was "be yourself" which kind of brought me to this point, which is that, who am I? Problem is I'm not sure. Having spent so much time and effort trying to be what everyone else is looking for I don't really know what I would act like if I were to just stop worrying about what other people thought. It seems every action I take has always had a purpose; to alter someone's perception of me, to shape their view of me to exactly what I want it to be.
If your not 100% understanding, the simplest example I can give is a real life job interview, fortunately I'm extremely good at them, because I anticipate the questions well, and have a very good understanding of what they are looking for, and what they want to hear. They always ask questions, but are looking for more then just the answer. You can credit most girls for being more complex then an HR manager though, as I generally have a difficult time figuring them out.
Either way I hope this makes sense to someone here.