sweetsoleil
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Hi my name is Maria.
Im here because I finally realize Im not alone with my struggles. I really thought I was just extremely shy for most of my life. I also thought i likely had ADHD. I thought I could pretend to be "normal" but as the years go by its obvious I struggle with life more than many people i know do. My family say things like "oh there isnt a thing wrong with you" or "you are just unique and think differently than most people".
Growing up my gramma would laugh and say "you are just backwards thats all", which i had no idea what she meant, but now the thought actually makes me giggle. I am different. I have been diagnosed with a huge list of things over the past 20 years. Im 39, turning 40 next month. Most are anxiety related. generalized anxiety disorder, seasonal effective disorder, depression (which i argued for many years, but now would have to possible agree lol) agoraphobia with panic, OCD, social anxiety.
Recently, i have been diagnosed with PTSD complex i think he said...I also have a dissociative disorder which i have come to count on, knowing its not even normal! I used alcohol for most of my life to help self medicate. It worked for anxiety, perhaps, but always caused sooo many other problems id have to deal with. I quit drinking for 5 years until recently...just one cold beer here and there...
Anyway, i have joined this website and am very new to using the computer as a means of communicating so i hope i do things correctly on here. I already feel better just reading many of the things people have said. I really dont feel alone anymore. Funny how just finding this website gave me a sence of hope and friendship. My agoraphobia has been quite extreme for the past year..so im home almost 100% of the time. I enjoy reading the positive things people say about other people on this site.
I have no real therapist as of yet...apparently the waiting lists are insanely long...so until that happens ill happily be in the background here reading
Im here because I finally realize Im not alone with my struggles. I really thought I was just extremely shy for most of my life. I also thought i likely had ADHD. I thought I could pretend to be "normal" but as the years go by its obvious I struggle with life more than many people i know do. My family say things like "oh there isnt a thing wrong with you" or "you are just unique and think differently than most people".
Growing up my gramma would laugh and say "you are just backwards thats all", which i had no idea what she meant, but now the thought actually makes me giggle. I am different. I have been diagnosed with a huge list of things over the past 20 years. Im 39, turning 40 next month. Most are anxiety related. generalized anxiety disorder, seasonal effective disorder, depression (which i argued for many years, but now would have to possible agree lol) agoraphobia with panic, OCD, social anxiety.
Recently, i have been diagnosed with PTSD complex i think he said...I also have a dissociative disorder which i have come to count on, knowing its not even normal! I used alcohol for most of my life to help self medicate. It worked for anxiety, perhaps, but always caused sooo many other problems id have to deal with. I quit drinking for 5 years until recently...just one cold beer here and there...
Anyway, i have joined this website and am very new to using the computer as a means of communicating so i hope i do things correctly on here. I already feel better just reading many of the things people have said. I really dont feel alone anymore. Funny how just finding this website gave me a sence of hope and friendship. My agoraphobia has been quite extreme for the past year..so im home almost 100% of the time. I enjoy reading the positive things people say about other people on this site.
I have no real therapist as of yet...apparently the waiting lists are insanely long...so until that happens ill happily be in the background here reading
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