Hello, I'm a UniqueMommi,
I have been diagnosed through the Lakeland FASD Centre in Cold Lake, AB. as having
Neurobehavioral Disorder (alcohol exposed)
Severe Attention Deficit Disorder-combined type
Generalized Anxiety Disorder, including PTSD and OCD
I am now on 54mg Concerta, Venlafaxine XR 150mg, Omeprazoie 20mg, and 0.1mg Synthroid
My life turned into kaos in the past 3 weeks and has been since were married in 1980. Young and in love no one suspected that the diagnosis was what I had.
My marriage is about the end. My 4 children are grown and the damage is done. Now I own up to my disability. I could not accept responsibility for what I had because I didn't know what it was. Try as I may I couldn't and that is partly due to the FASD Spectrum. No one knows but me how hard I try to do things. It just is never good enough for anyone else. A psychologist friend pictured me as a tapestry. When done correctly it is the same on both sides. For me, the one side was perfect. On the other side there were KNOTS. She saw the KNOTS as all the NOTS I have had all my life. Not good enough, not trying enough, not thinking enough etc. So I basically did NOT measure up. So now, I take Concerta. I can focus better. I still adjust.
My husband is worn out, his health is in jeopardy and my marriage is about to end. All I can do now is concentrate on what ever I can do to make things better here at home and possibly at a new job. I see my changes, but others don't. Not even those in my church family.
They support me as does LDAY Yukon, Yukon Council on disAbility (YCOD), Challenge, FASSY, Workers Adversity Office. Mental Health, GCC Church, and friend acquaintances over the years. My Psychologist Bill Stewart who has dog mushed here in the Yukon is helping me also. It still does not take away the pain in my heart of the impending marriage split. I need to be given a chance.
Why all of a sudden am I the strong one in this marriage. Is it because I am becoming accountable? Can the spouse not be accountable for his health? I know as an exterior brain he is burned out and carried a heavy load. But no supports were ever in place and wants out now. I don't want everything thrown away. Why can't people just keep trying as I have had to do? Why give up? Life is to short and I also see you don't want to cut life short by burning out either.
Counseling not just for me but for the spouse. I guess they don't get it or I don't get it.
Paulette, aka mushtodo the UniqueMommi
I have been diagnosed through the Lakeland FASD Centre in Cold Lake, AB. as having
Neurobehavioral Disorder (alcohol exposed)
Severe Attention Deficit Disorder-combined type
Generalized Anxiety Disorder, including PTSD and OCD
I am now on 54mg Concerta, Venlafaxine XR 150mg, Omeprazoie 20mg, and 0.1mg Synthroid
My life turned into kaos in the past 3 weeks and has been since were married in 1980. Young and in love no one suspected that the diagnosis was what I had.
My marriage is about the end. My 4 children are grown and the damage is done. Now I own up to my disability. I could not accept responsibility for what I had because I didn't know what it was. Try as I may I couldn't and that is partly due to the FASD Spectrum. No one knows but me how hard I try to do things. It just is never good enough for anyone else. A psychologist friend pictured me as a tapestry. When done correctly it is the same on both sides. For me, the one side was perfect. On the other side there were KNOTS. She saw the KNOTS as all the NOTS I have had all my life. Not good enough, not trying enough, not thinking enough etc. So I basically did NOT measure up. So now, I take Concerta. I can focus better. I still adjust.
My husband is worn out, his health is in jeopardy and my marriage is about to end. All I can do now is concentrate on what ever I can do to make things better here at home and possibly at a new job. I see my changes, but others don't. Not even those in my church family.
They support me as does LDAY Yukon, Yukon Council on disAbility (YCOD), Challenge, FASSY, Workers Adversity Office. Mental Health, GCC Church, and friend acquaintances over the years. My Psychologist Bill Stewart who has dog mushed here in the Yukon is helping me also. It still does not take away the pain in my heart of the impending marriage split. I need to be given a chance.
Why all of a sudden am I the strong one in this marriage. Is it because I am becoming accountable? Can the spouse not be accountable for his health? I know as an exterior brain he is burned out and carried a heavy load. But no supports were ever in place and wants out now. I don't want everything thrown away. Why can't people just keep trying as I have had to do? Why give up? Life is to short and I also see you don't want to cut life short by burning out either.
Counseling not just for me but for the spouse. I guess they don't get it or I don't get it.
Paulette, aka mushtodo the UniqueMommi
