Lilpinkcoupe
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Hello, everyone...I'm Lil' Pink Coupe, and I'm 20 years old and a college student...going into my third year this fall.
I love animation, classic and contemporary, especially animated movies that aren't afraid to show anything...like Watership Down, The Plague Dogs, The Brave Little Toaster, Rock And Rule, The Hunchback of Notre Dame, Fritz the Cat... you know, the ones that aren't all candycoated for little kids like they seem to be today.
I really like Pixar films, too, especially the Cars movies. For some reason, I love anything to do with anthropomorphic Cars and machines. I even have a huge box of the die cast Cars toys (and other assorted die cast Cars like Matchbox, HotWheels, Johnny Lightning, etc) that I've collected since 2006. I have a collection of Cars plushies, too. The Cars movies have gotten me thru some really hard times.
I really like stuffed animals, too, and always sleep with a bunch. I even make some of my own by hand.
I actually registered for this forum a long time ago, but I've only posted just now...you see, I'm super confused right now. Recently I've read some stuff on Borderline Personality Disorder, and have taken some online tests for it, and have found out that it's possible that I could have it, or be at risk for it. I've also read excerpts from Rachel Reiland's "Get Me Out of Here" on Amazon.com, and was startled to find how much I can relate to it, minus the raging and hitting her kids and guilt tripping. What I DID identify with was the fear of rejection, feeling different, and the feeling that everyone's going to leave me eventually cuz I just plain fail at life. I don't drive yet, I don't have a clear idea of what I want to major in or want to do after college (basically if there's anything available that I won't screw up to bejesus and back (like I seem to do with everything), I'll take it), I don't assert myself, etc. etc.
I also think I might be kind of depressed, too...I've also taken online tests for that, and the results always come up with, "You sound severely depressed - seek help immediately," but I can't...you see, when I was a kid, my mom wanted to get me dx'ed with OCD, ADD, Asperger's Syndrome, etc. and put me on meds, and my dad had to fight her long and hard in court to prevent that from happening. After all his hard work, I just don''t have the heart to still have issues...he'd be heartbroken, and so would I. He's told me he's okay with my taking some kind of meds for my anxiety, tho....now that I'm an adult and my brain is fully developed.
I just don't know what to do or what my problem(s) is/are.
I love animation, classic and contemporary, especially animated movies that aren't afraid to show anything...like Watership Down, The Plague Dogs, The Brave Little Toaster, Rock And Rule, The Hunchback of Notre Dame, Fritz the Cat... you know, the ones that aren't all candycoated for little kids like they seem to be today.
I really like Pixar films, too, especially the Cars movies. For some reason, I love anything to do with anthropomorphic Cars and machines. I even have a huge box of the die cast Cars toys (and other assorted die cast Cars like Matchbox, HotWheels, Johnny Lightning, etc) that I've collected since 2006. I have a collection of Cars plushies, too. The Cars movies have gotten me thru some really hard times. I really like stuffed animals, too, and always sleep with a bunch.
I even make some of my own by hand.I actually registered for this forum a long time ago, but I've only posted just now...you see, I'm super confused right now. Recently I've read some stuff on Borderline Personality Disorder, and have taken some online tests for it, and have found out that it's possible that I could have it, or be at risk for it. I've also read excerpts from Rachel Reiland's "Get Me Out of Here" on Amazon.com, and was startled to find how much I can relate to it, minus the raging and hitting her kids and guilt tripping. What I DID identify with was the fear of rejection, feeling different, and the feeling that everyone's going to leave me eventually cuz I just plain fail at life. I don't drive yet, I don't have a clear idea of what I want to major in or want to do after college (basically if there's anything available that I won't screw up to bejesus and back (like I seem to do with everything), I'll take it), I don't assert myself, etc. etc.
I also think I might be kind of depressed, too...I've also taken online tests for that, and the results always come up with, "You sound severely depressed - seek help immediately," but I can't...you see, when I was a kid, my mom wanted to get me dx'ed with OCD, ADD, Asperger's Syndrome, etc. and put me on meds, and my dad had to fight her long and hard in court to prevent that from happening. After all his hard work, I just don''t have the heart to still have issues...he'd be heartbroken, and so would I. He's told me he's okay with my taking some kind of meds for my anxiety, tho....now that I'm an adult and my brain is fully developed.
I just don't know what to do or what my problem(s) is/are.
