Lily
Member
Hello I am new here. I am a 30 year old mother of one, and in the middle of a seperation. My husband and I had been together since I was 15. I am not very good with talking when I am trying to explain myself but seem to be better at writting it down. I have been diagnosed with Complex PTSD, DID, OCD and severe depression, self harmer. I have been in and out of hospital since the first time I tried to end it when I was 11. I have lost count of the number of times being formend and hospitalized. Or in ICU. I have been bounced around from dr, to dr over 15 and the only solution that I get is to take more medication. I have lost count of the number of meds I have had over the years. At one point I was on so much meds that I had a psychotic break caused by medication.
I am tired of it all and feel like I am standing on the edge and can't seem to decide if I should back up from the edge or just walk off. I really do want to get better, but I don't know if I can. To have Drs look right at you and go I don't know how to help you here try this person. Doesn't give me much hope of it ever getting better. Or to be told by one Dr that you are always going to be this way for the rest of your life. I can't go on living the rest of my life this way.
I am hoping by being here well to be honest I don't know what I am hoping.
Thanks
I guess I should also say that I was told to come here by Chaos is me, and that he is my husband. He said that in the short time he has been here he has found it helpful and thought it would be good for me. We have discussed if he would continue to post if we were both on here or be honest and we agreed that we would and that anything said on the board was just that said on the board. But we would both be respectful of what the other writes and that if there is something we don't want them to read that we would respect that. I hope that does not cause problems for anyone. And if it is an issues please let me know and I will see what I can do about finding another webboard.
Thank you.
I am tired of it all and feel like I am standing on the edge and can't seem to decide if I should back up from the edge or just walk off. I really do want to get better, but I don't know if I can. To have Drs look right at you and go I don't know how to help you here try this person. Doesn't give me much hope of it ever getting better. Or to be told by one Dr that you are always going to be this way for the rest of your life. I can't go on living the rest of my life this way.
I am hoping by being here well to be honest I don't know what I am hoping.
Thanks
I guess I should also say that I was told to come here by Chaos is me, and that he is my husband. He said that in the short time he has been here he has found it helpful and thought it would be good for me. We have discussed if he would continue to post if we were both on here or be honest and we agreed that we would and that anything said on the board was just that said on the board. But we would both be respectful of what the other writes and that if there is something we don't want them to read that we would respect that. I hope that does not cause problems for anyone. And if it is an issues please let me know and I will see what I can do about finding another webboard.
Thank you.
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