Hey, new to this website.

[maryark]

Hey, so I'm new to this website. I came because it helps me to remember that I'm not the only one that deals with tough mental stuff. Personally, I deal with OCD. It's not so much manifested in compulsions, but it has taken on form in very vicious cycles of intrusive obsessive thoughts.

I like to play piano and bass guitar, read, be with animals and hang out with small groups of close friends. I also really enjoy watching movies of all kinds.

I try very hard to be independent and confidant, but the truth is that I am very susceptible to other people's criticism and opinions, and I am constantly feeling as if I don't belong with them. I like my alone time a lot, but I've made myself be very social because I feel ashamed of my OCD and I want to hide it. I'm not ashamed of HAVING it, it's just that the symptoms are so awful that I try very hard to pretend they aren't there. It doesn't really work, but it helps me feel like I fit in.

I also have a lot of emotional detachment from people, and feel very disconnected from certain things that used to bring me a lot of joy.

haha, I don't really know what I'm supposed to say here.

So anyway, that is me (more or less).

 

[Retired]

Welcome to Psychlinks, maryark. Hope you find the support and information you need.

Feel free to post your questions and comments here in the Forum.

 

[David Baxter PhD]

Welcome to Psychlinks, maryark.

I like to play piano and bass guitar, read, be with animals and hang out with small groups of close friends.

I had to read that twice. The first time I thought it said, "I like to play piano and bass guitar, and hang out with small groups of animals".

 

[maryark]

Hahaha, that's funny. Small groups of animals would've been an oddly specific thing to say. I'm glad to have found this website!!

 

[forgetmenot]

Just want to say hi welcome to the PL

 

[CarlaMarie]

Hi Maryark,
Welcome! I share your likes. Creativity is cool. I too enjoy my alone time. I paint with acrylics on canvas and lots of other stuff. My animals rock. I have a zoo. They keep me somewhat sane.