I'm not doing so well. I'm an ex-junkie who just got off felony probation. I have 13 months clean today. I was in love with a girl and she broke up with me, then hooked up with another dude three weeks later. I've really been wondering what's the point lately. My self esteem is at an all time low, and suicide is looking like a good way out right now. Every day is an uphill battle, and I'm tired of it. Tired of pain and frustration. It's really getting old. I've been praying my ass off. Haven't been working much in my cognitive behavioral therapy books though. Sometimes they're painful for me, because I see how my twisted thinking has ****ed up my life, and it makes me feel like an idiot. I'd go back to drugs in a second if I thought they'd make me feel any better. Man, I sure am miserable right now.