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[Nysha]

soo,,, i have severe depression, it started when i was younger and was sexually assaulted by someone very close to me, and lately i have been feeling worse, to the point where harming myself has come back into my life as my only way to make myself feel better, i have been showing lots of symptoms and i really don't want to go back to the doctor... i was hoping i could find a place to vent, and hopefully make myself feel better.. and at this point i feel nothing will. well, thats all.. i guess

 

[David Baxter PhD]

Hi, Nysha - welcome to Psychlinks.

Venting is fine but that's only going to take you so far. You say you don't want to go back to the doctor... are you on any medications for your depression currently or have you been in the past? Have you seen a therapist?

 

[bloodwood]

Hi nysha,
Welcome to the group. It is funny how things finally come to the surface and demand attention.
How can we help?
Peter

 

[forgetmenot]

Hi glad you are here I am sorry everything is coming back to the forefront now. I just want you to know i do understand how fearful it must be for you. Talking here can bring some clarity to what you are feeling but i do know that eventually getting professional help will be needed. Trying to do this on you own gets too hard okay gets so confusing. With a therapist you will get the skills that will help you get through living for a long time therapy will give you that strong base so when the sadness hits hard you will have to coping skills to get through it I hope this makes sense take care okay

 

[Nysha]

I have been on depression pills before, but the doctors said i was fine to be off of them, but everything is coming back just worse, i was supposed to see a therapist but it ended up never happening.. everything has been very confusing to me, but i always prefer to try and be happy myself, without the pills, but it's not working anymore.. i'm just not sure anymore, and the doctors make me feel crazy..

 

[forgetmenot]

"but it's not working anymore"

See what you are saying it is not working okay Go back to your doctor explain being off medication is not working and get another referal to a therapist Yes the doctors can sometimes seem to make us feel more crazy lol but they are there to help you so ask for help it will make things less confusing hugs

 

[bloodwood]

Hi Nysha
As Spirit says, the doctors are there to help.
Sometimes it takes a bit of trial and error for a doctor to know how a certain person is going to handle medication. They play with the dosages a bit till they find a stable balance for that person.
Be patient with the process and hang in there. If you are feeling bad then you probably need something.
I also tried very hard to handle it on my own. I spent a long time feeling miserable. If the pill makes your life more livable then that is a good thing.
I also take a pill for my diabetes, it is the same thing - an ilness or difficulty, not a weakness.
Peter