Hello everyone...
Almost 2 years ago I had a mental breakdown and was diagnosed with MDD, GAD and BPD - just after my 47th birthday... looking back I can see mental health issues. I was suicidal as a teenager due to ongoing abuse and feeling trapped. There was signs of it in my mid-twenties as a single mom and then again after I suffered a basal skull fracture and brain injury back in the day where no coma meant no brain injury...
In 2014 I spent 1 out of every 5 days either in the psych ward or in a pre-hospital short stay residential treatment program. I've only been in for 2 weeks in 2015 so a big improvement. :lol:
I am blessed to have a wonderful husband who has been through thick and thin with me. My (adult) children are also supportive and I have developed a great network of support.
My town has a really good mental health unit with great staff and excellent programs and facilitators who challenge any distorted thinking. I did a intro to DBT program before moving to our current location - it was okay but there was not the challenge there is now. Maybe I wasn't as ready then either. My brain chemistry was really messed up for most of it. My current MH is going to do a 5 week Emotional Distress program - it should be good.
With my BPD it's hard sometimes to accept changes - the critical inner voices make it hard - and that starts a spiral of depression/anxiety. I am a "quiet" BPD - I turn all my anger and suffering internal where no one sees it... I don't rage outwardly like many of the BPD do. It took me a LONG time to figure out how I was BPD when I didn't rage externally as that was the "classic" symptom. I do fit many of the other symptoms of BPD though.
I have awoken my spiritual part of me again which brings me a lot of comfort. (I'm not sure if I'm allowed to expand on this so I won't).
My husband is the caretaker of a children's ranch which is home to camps for disabled children in the summer so we live on 43 acres of paradise. While the ranch is home to several animals (horses and a petting zoo) we have a cat and a 1 year old dachshund/jack russell dog (yes, long with short legs and also blonde)... Ivory makes sure I get out of the house for walks everyday...
Thanks for reading...
Almost 2 years ago I had a mental breakdown and was diagnosed with MDD, GAD and BPD - just after my 47th birthday... looking back I can see mental health issues. I was suicidal as a teenager due to ongoing abuse and feeling trapped. There was signs of it in my mid-twenties as a single mom and then again after I suffered a basal skull fracture and brain injury back in the day where no coma meant no brain injury...
In 2014 I spent 1 out of every 5 days either in the psych ward or in a pre-hospital short stay residential treatment program. I've only been in for 2 weeks in 2015 so a big improvement. :lol:
I am blessed to have a wonderful husband who has been through thick and thin with me. My (adult) children are also supportive and I have developed a great network of support.
My town has a really good mental health unit with great staff and excellent programs and facilitators who challenge any distorted thinking. I did a intro to DBT program before moving to our current location - it was okay but there was not the challenge there is now. Maybe I wasn't as ready then either. My brain chemistry was really messed up for most of it. My current MH is going to do a 5 week Emotional Distress program - it should be good.
With my BPD it's hard sometimes to accept changes - the critical inner voices make it hard - and that starts a spiral of depression/anxiety. I am a "quiet" BPD - I turn all my anger and suffering internal where no one sees it... I don't rage outwardly like many of the BPD do. It took me a LONG time to figure out how I was BPD when I didn't rage externally as that was the "classic" symptom. I do fit many of the other symptoms of BPD though.
I have awoken my spiritual part of me again which brings me a lot of comfort. (I'm not sure if I'm allowed to expand on this so I won't).
My husband is the caretaker of a children's ranch which is home to camps for disabled children in the summer so we live on 43 acres of paradise. While the ranch is home to several animals (horses and a petting zoo) we have a cat and a 1 year old dachshund/jack russell dog (yes, long with short legs and also blonde)... Ivory makes sure I get out of the house for walks everyday...
Thanks for reading...
