i was so exhausted last night when i went to bed. i haven't slept all that well in a while. i went to bed at a decent hour tonight finally and in 4 hours time i've woken up 3 times. i am wide awake now. i don't know how i am going to be able to function if this keeps up. and this thought leads to all the possible problems that flow from that and next thing i know i am thinking everything is hopeless. just had to write this out, maybe now i can relax and fall asleep again.