I have to take hypnotics in order to sleep. I've been on them for about 4 years now. I don't always dream, but when I do it's seldom pleasant. I'm always being attacked. Obviously I don't remember a lot of it. But, I do always remember being under attack. I'm always being killed or injured in my dreams.
The last one that I remember was so vivid and frightening. I was on a beach. It was in Haiti, I think. I've been there before and I can still remember how the sand felt on my feet. Fine like talcum powder. But very hot. The surf came in suddenly and I was dragged out into open water and left clinging to a picnic table, barely floating on the surface. I could taste the salt in the water. There was a shark in the water. A huge, white shark. Like the ones in movies. Big enough to swallow a man whole. I woke up laying prone on my knees and elbows, clinging to my bed.
Has anyone else experienced anything like this? What does it mean to have such violent experiences? I already know that I'm insane. But, there must be something that I can do. I can't go on like this. I scare the hell out of people when I wake up. It's come to the point where I'm isolating myself whenever I go to sleep.
The last one that I remember was so vivid and frightening. I was on a beach. It was in Haiti, I think. I've been there before and I can still remember how the sand felt on my feet. Fine like talcum powder. But very hot. The surf came in suddenly and I was dragged out into open water and left clinging to a picnic table, barely floating on the surface. I could taste the salt in the water. There was a shark in the water. A huge, white shark. Like the ones in movies. Big enough to swallow a man whole. I woke up laying prone on my knees and elbows, clinging to my bed.
Has anyone else experienced anything like this? What does it mean to have such violent experiences? I already know that I'm insane. But, there must be something that I can do. I can't go on like this. I scare the hell out of people when I wake up. It's come to the point where I'm isolating myself whenever I go to sleep.