criteriaforhope
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Growing up I was sooo beautiful, im not tooting my own horn and I never bragged about it when I had it all but looking back I realize just how much I had going for me physically, and what a fat ugly blob I've become. Literally my whole entire family, my aunts and cousins used to marvel at how beautiful I was and would try to be just like me. I never dieted or exercised, and I just had this amazing body.
Due to some ups and downs in life, I started emotional eating and started living a severely sedentary lifestyle. This all happened around 2005 and just got absolutely worse by 2007. Between then and now I've gained about 50 pounds. People from my past look at me horrified, I seem much older than my 21 years, and I just dont feel good about myself anymore. I feel embarassed even going out to eat, because I feel like fat people like me are a disgrace eating out -- i know its ridiculous but thats the way I feel.
I start working out for a coupel days at a time but then I just lose hope at times when Im getting dressed and feel like crap next to my skinny sister and fit and fab mother.
I always hear "oh you've got a wonderful personality, you've got gorgeous features hun but really you could lose a couple pounds." Its super embarassing.
How do you motivate yourself enough to skip the emotional eating that stems from poor self esteem and work toward being fit and feeling amazing again??
My new year's resolution is to give the gym a 3 month commitment and hopefully lose 25 lbs by my birthday in the start of april.
Due to some ups and downs in life, I started emotional eating and started living a severely sedentary lifestyle. This all happened around 2005 and just got absolutely worse by 2007. Between then and now I've gained about 50 pounds. People from my past look at me horrified, I seem much older than my 21 years, and I just dont feel good about myself anymore. I feel embarassed even going out to eat, because I feel like fat people like me are a disgrace eating out -- i know its ridiculous but thats the way I feel.
I start working out for a coupel days at a time but then I just lose hope at times when Im getting dressed and feel like crap next to my skinny sister and fit and fab mother.
I always hear "oh you've got a wonderful personality, you've got gorgeous features hun but really you could lose a couple pounds." Its super embarassing.
How do you motivate yourself enough to skip the emotional eating that stems from poor self esteem and work toward being fit and feeling amazing again??
My new year's resolution is to give the gym a 3 month commitment and hopefully lose 25 lbs by my birthday in the start of april.