I thought I was doing good

[Asuha]

I Started SH when I was 14 and In the last 2 years I have been trying my best to stop. I don't know why it should be so hard for me if I want to stop I should just be able to. Well I go for a couple days or a couple weeks or a few times even a couple months without and then I mess it all up and have to start over again. It is frustrating when I am finally getting there and then something happens that triggers me and I find myself doing it again. This time I almost made it to 4 months and I just don't know what happened. My fiance believes I have depression and maybe he is right but I don't know what to do to fix that. People have suggested therapists or something of that sort but I have a fear of them so that's useless I just don't know what to do anymore nothing seems to work for me.

 

[David Baxter PhD]

Perhaps it's time to listen to your boyfriend's advice and seek the advice of a qualified therapist, since your other options have failed.

 

[Banned]

I agree with David, Asuha. I used to SH as well and I know how strong those urges can get. It is very much an addictive behaviour. Seeking out a therapist for the first time can be scary but I think you will find the support you receive to overcome this will be invaluable.

 

[forgetmenot]

Hi Asuha it took me a long time to trust enough to get enough courage to get help hun I hope you do it is worth it you are worth the fight hun. I can tell you the fear you are feeling don't let it take away a avenue of help ok Once you establish a trust with a therapist that fear will go away hun it will