I feel like I?ve hit a wall.
I feel like I deserve better than what life has been offering me. But the way things have been going this is a far as the boat will take me. I feel like the only way to get out of this rut I?m feeling is to obtain a fulfilling job that pays for my existence. Sure I can take a job selling insurance, but how long will I last? The insurance market is saturated, and I?ve always considered myself to be an analytical type. I don?t see that to be a realistic fit and they are just desperate to find anyone to fill the position, as the turnaround rates are high. Besides I also see it as something that would conflict with my conscience, and that I?m also wasting my potential. Suppose I?m employed there long enough, and then I become a manager, then what? Dead end. I wouldn?t be able to get the type of job I really want from that position. Right now I?m working as an unpaid intern at an EDC, some days I feel like I?m gaining experience and it expands on my skills and knowledge, others I feel like I?m just doing busy work. My work with the EDC isn?t likely to result in a paying job with them. I?m not angered with them; my lack of payment isn?t because of a conspiracy of greed. The director of our branch is severely underpaid and had to leave retirement so the county can actually have an EDC. Other executives of the EDC are business people who are a part of other public organizations and are volunteering.
But the problem is there simply aren?t jobs which are relevant to my skill set, or they ask for a ridiculous number of years of experience simply because employers know they can find desperate workers or they are still trying to save money by training new hires as little as possible. It makes me angry that they are only thinking about the here and now, while the cynic in me wonders if they are manipulating the labor market as there is an ever increasing supply of college graduates, and when they finally get new blood into their systems they can totally low-ball new hires. Woe, to college graduates who find themselves in the labor market at a time when good jobs are scarce, for they have wasted their time. I can only see the creation of decent jobs for graduates being significant five-years from now. Which leaves myself and many others a lost generation.
I?ve tried career counseling, and I just don?t feel they have knowledge and resources to significantly help people, and a lot of it may be out of their hands. They tell unemployed workers to identify key people in organizations in specific departments to which they?d wish to work for, and to send their resumes to them and not HR people, and follow-up with constant phone calls. This is really bad advice; for one thing firms are modeled differently from each other; phone numbers, addresses and email addresses of key people aren?t typically available for the public; this isn?t exclusive advice, which means a great number of people are already trying this and firms have the apparatus to deal with the barrage of job-seekers, meaning they are just referred to the HR department; suppose they do get contact, it may do them a disservice as they are interrupting the daily function of these firms; undertaking these tasks would require considerable amount of time which compromises time spent on searching for jobs on the numerous job search engines, and finally this knowledge seems relevant mostly to unemployed professionals who?ve held prestigious positions at well known companies, as these are the type of people who have such status that these acts wouldn?t be an intrusion, and obviously they would know how similar firms function, as well as key people to identify. Another problem associated with these one stops is if you notice a lot of people who visit and are on computers are poor and older people who do not have access to personal computers at their homes, which means that they cannot save multiple resumes on file, this is a huge problem as most firms nowadays require applicants to send their resumes electronically. They cannot compete as well by sending their resumes through the mail as their resumes aren?t sent instantly. These one-stops can only help you with their own State job boards, which do not receive as many postings as do other boards, which brings with it another problem; there are too many freaking job search engines which are a disservice to both job seekers and employers. Both parties can?t be sure of finding each other, the people who benefit the most are the job search engines as they receive revenue from postings and advertisements. In short there are too many turds to pick peanuts from. These multiple job search engines create the myth of finding the turd that smells like roses, which contains the golden walnut.
I just don?t feel a sense of direction, and I?m really aggravated that I can?t come up with a conceivable plan. I don?t know where I?ll be two months from now, let alone five years.
I don?t feel ashamed of what I?ve done, I feel like I?ve made significant improvements in my life, I graduated summa cum laude with a BA in economics?not bad for a high school flunky. Yet, I?m back to where I started. I had to move back home from college, I can?t afford to live on my own; I?m under insurmountable student debt; I sleep on an air mattress; I don?t have access to healthcare; I need thousands in dental work done; I have an old-ass car which is due to stop working any day now.
I?m angered that I can?t take care of myself; I don?t want to be a burden on anyone else. If I can?t have my own life, then I should take it away. My dependency on others is repressive to their own liberty; therefore they should see that I am relinquishing them of a forced responsibility that hasn?t a definite end. You could even say I?m helping to create a labor shortage, which will increase wages and the standard of living for workers?something which the fading presence of unions are having difficulty achieving.
I feel like I deserve better than what life has been offering me. But the way things have been going this is a far as the boat will take me. I feel like the only way to get out of this rut I?m feeling is to obtain a fulfilling job that pays for my existence. Sure I can take a job selling insurance, but how long will I last? The insurance market is saturated, and I?ve always considered myself to be an analytical type. I don?t see that to be a realistic fit and they are just desperate to find anyone to fill the position, as the turnaround rates are high. Besides I also see it as something that would conflict with my conscience, and that I?m also wasting my potential. Suppose I?m employed there long enough, and then I become a manager, then what? Dead end. I wouldn?t be able to get the type of job I really want from that position. Right now I?m working as an unpaid intern at an EDC, some days I feel like I?m gaining experience and it expands on my skills and knowledge, others I feel like I?m just doing busy work. My work with the EDC isn?t likely to result in a paying job with them. I?m not angered with them; my lack of payment isn?t because of a conspiracy of greed. The director of our branch is severely underpaid and had to leave retirement so the county can actually have an EDC. Other executives of the EDC are business people who are a part of other public organizations and are volunteering.
But the problem is there simply aren?t jobs which are relevant to my skill set, or they ask for a ridiculous number of years of experience simply because employers know they can find desperate workers or they are still trying to save money by training new hires as little as possible. It makes me angry that they are only thinking about the here and now, while the cynic in me wonders if they are manipulating the labor market as there is an ever increasing supply of college graduates, and when they finally get new blood into their systems they can totally low-ball new hires. Woe, to college graduates who find themselves in the labor market at a time when good jobs are scarce, for they have wasted their time. I can only see the creation of decent jobs for graduates being significant five-years from now. Which leaves myself and many others a lost generation.
I?ve tried career counseling, and I just don?t feel they have knowledge and resources to significantly help people, and a lot of it may be out of their hands. They tell unemployed workers to identify key people in organizations in specific departments to which they?d wish to work for, and to send their resumes to them and not HR people, and follow-up with constant phone calls. This is really bad advice; for one thing firms are modeled differently from each other; phone numbers, addresses and email addresses of key people aren?t typically available for the public; this isn?t exclusive advice, which means a great number of people are already trying this and firms have the apparatus to deal with the barrage of job-seekers, meaning they are just referred to the HR department; suppose they do get contact, it may do them a disservice as they are interrupting the daily function of these firms; undertaking these tasks would require considerable amount of time which compromises time spent on searching for jobs on the numerous job search engines, and finally this knowledge seems relevant mostly to unemployed professionals who?ve held prestigious positions at well known companies, as these are the type of people who have such status that these acts wouldn?t be an intrusion, and obviously they would know how similar firms function, as well as key people to identify. Another problem associated with these one stops is if you notice a lot of people who visit and are on computers are poor and older people who do not have access to personal computers at their homes, which means that they cannot save multiple resumes on file, this is a huge problem as most firms nowadays require applicants to send their resumes electronically. They cannot compete as well by sending their resumes through the mail as their resumes aren?t sent instantly. These one-stops can only help you with their own State job boards, which do not receive as many postings as do other boards, which brings with it another problem; there are too many freaking job search engines which are a disservice to both job seekers and employers. Both parties can?t be sure of finding each other, the people who benefit the most are the job search engines as they receive revenue from postings and advertisements. In short there are too many turds to pick peanuts from. These multiple job search engines create the myth of finding the turd that smells like roses, which contains the golden walnut.
I just don?t feel a sense of direction, and I?m really aggravated that I can?t come up with a conceivable plan. I don?t know where I?ll be two months from now, let alone five years.
I don?t feel ashamed of what I?ve done, I feel like I?ve made significant improvements in my life, I graduated summa cum laude with a BA in economics?not bad for a high school flunky. Yet, I?m back to where I started. I had to move back home from college, I can?t afford to live on my own; I?m under insurmountable student debt; I sleep on an air mattress; I don?t have access to healthcare; I need thousands in dental work done; I have an old-ass car which is due to stop working any day now.
I?m angered that I can?t take care of myself; I don?t want to be a burden on anyone else. If I can?t have my own life, then I should take it away. My dependency on others is repressive to their own liberty; therefore they should see that I am relinquishing them of a forced responsibility that hasn?t a definite end. You could even say I?m helping to create a labor shortage, which will increase wages and the standard of living for workers?something which the fading presence of unions are having difficulty achieving.
