Intimidated

[Into The Light]

maybe you're throwing yourself away, mary. those are your thoughts in your head that you aren't good enough, smart enough, that everything is your fault. those aren't ours. :support:

 

[forgetmenot]

I know Into The Light it is me everyone here has been very supportive thanks

 

[white page]

You don't understand Jazzey. Its me. Everyone throws me away in the end. Its me, I'm not smart enough, not good enough, i screw up and its my fault

Mary ,
I am so sorry you have this distorted image of yourself . Take a little step back and try to see yourself from another angle .
I see how your posts here have moved the members by your courage and determination to get better .
I read all the supportive and respectful responses that your threads have recieved .

No one judges any one here , and certainly no one is going to throw you away , you are a valuable member of this forum.
It is not possible to be "perfect" it is perhaps this unrealistic goal , which impairs you to have a true and kinder appreciation of yourself .

At times we are so convinced that we are stupid , etc , that we are deaf and blind to any positive feedback we are recieving .

Throw that old distorting mirror away and buy yourself a new one which reflects back that bright ,kind , supportive , sensitive and caring Mary, that you truly are .

My very best wishes wp:hug:

 

[forgetmenot]

Thank you White Page for you kind comments. They are just feelings that i have not been able to let go of from my past. My fears i know are unwarranted and someday i hope to get rid of them. I have alot of issues to work through but my main concern will always be my daughter somehow i have to get her well and strong enough to move on away from me. I am tired White Page so tired but everyone here is suffering and i hope and pray that we all find peace someday. Take Care White Page you are a very strong support here for everyone. mary

 

[stargazer]

I find it very hard talking with my daughter's psychiatrist. He is very tall and intimidating. I just feel very small and inferior.

If it's any consolation, I also have trouble when someone I have to deal with is tall or of large build, especially if that person can be construed in any way to be an authority figure. I recently had an employer who, though he had eventually landed in Performing Arts, had been a football quarterback in high school. He was a good four inches taller than me, and much larger and stronger. I naturally found him much more intimidating than a smaller employer would have been.

So I don't think your trepidation is that uncommon or unnatural. I think you just have to recognize it for what it is, and as you do so, it will lose its power.