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Ash said:
How are you doing these days, Janet?

thanks for asking

I haven't hurt myself the last two days. The two days before that I cut a lot and I felt stupid and thought it was not a good thing. Now I think it WAS a good thing. I'm wishy-washy about everything. I have no mind of my own. I can't decide what I think about anything especially these types of things. Anything that hurts me has to be good though. I'm just a self-centered, feeling sorry for myself, blob of ick that takes up space. I don't do anything good for anyone. I just waste. I am waste. That's a perfect word for me.

How are things going for you? How are you feeling?
 

Ash

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janetr said:
I don't do anything good for anyone. I just waste. I am waste. That's a perfect word for me.

You are NOT a waste. And you need to do something good for YOURSELF, at least one thing.

How are things going for you? How are you feeling?

Ehhh. Kind of a mess. Besides queasy and not being able to sleep because of this cold. I stayed home yesterday because I freaked out. I mean, freaked out. I had the desire to cut but I ended up doing laundry instead and then playing Mahjong. I can't decide if I need to medicate, though I'd rather not until the end of the pregnancy. Ah well.
 
Ash said:
Ehhh. Kind of a mess. Besides queasy and not being able to sleep because of this cold. I stayed home yesterday because I freaked out. I mean, freaked out. I had the desire to cut but I ended up doing laundry instead and then playing Mahjong. I can't decide if I need to medicate, though I'd rather not until the end of the pregnancy. Ah well.

Aww, sorry to hear about the queasiness and cold. I was all freaked out this morning. I hate that feeling.

I'm glad you didn't cut. Laundry and Mahjong as a substitute. I'll have to try that. :)

Have you been to the doctor yet?
 

Ash

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janetr said:
I'm glad you didn't cut. Laundry and Mahjong as a substitute. I'll have to try that. :)
You should! It's funny how simple mundane things can take your mind off of an issue long enough so that you can stay safe.

Have you been to the doctor yet?
I went for my first ob appointment last week. I'm nine weeks along now.
 
Of course it's an addiction, you get addicted to hurting yourself because you constantly feel the need to do so.
I think until people feel better about themselves and or their lives, then SI would definately be considered an addiction.
Atleast it is for me. but that's what the therapy is for I suppose.... everyone is different though....
 
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