i feel worthless. i feel like im a mistake. i feel that they will be better off without. i think about killing myself. i self harm. i feel drained of energy even if i just woke up. i always feel sad. i can't make up my mind like before. im always dazed. i have difficulty focusing. i feel guilty. i feel numb and empty. i actually dont know what i feel and what to feel. i just dont have interest in anything anymore. i just hate myself. i think that the only way out of what im going through is killing myself. im scared. i have trust issues. i just dont know anymore. i just dont know what to do.