Well, it's the day after Christmas and I already feel a sense of relief. I took a look into why I feel so depressed around this time of year and I think I figured some things out. First of all I don't agree with the pressure that goes along with Christmas. I realized that I am not following my beliefs of how Christmas should be celebrated and was beating myself up because I know that my beliefs do not follow what society tells me that Christmas is. Also, every Christmas the pain of my childhood and past adult life come to the surface. I have never recognized this before, but now that I do I am going to let these memories come forth and deal with them. I believe that will probably ease my depressive state. Anyway I am just so glad that it is over. Now I only have to see the ads of the after Christmas sales and I don't have to worry about it for another year.