About 5 years ago I was diagnosed with this disorder, not believing this to be true. I don't understand this to the full extent.
Yes, I admit I heard voices, saw things that apparently were not there. But it was short lived.
I do experience I believe to some extent, paranoia. I think others can look at me and know what I am thinking. I try to avoid eye contact as I think this way they won't know what's going on in my mind. I think that people are watching my every move. Like someone sent people to watch me. I look out windows wondering who is out there today.
I do hear things in my head, not sure if its just me though. The things telling how useless I am, to keep taking pills. (laxatives), that this is the answer. To not eat, cause I am fat and ugly enough. They or I tell myself to do this, to be in control. I tell myself that this is my way out.
But is this really considered schizoaffective? I don't think so. I am a cutter, sometimes. Its the voice inside my head that convinces me that I will better after harming myself, and holds to be true for a short time. (sigh).
Haunting
Yes, I admit I heard voices, saw things that apparently were not there. But it was short lived.
I do experience I believe to some extent, paranoia. I think others can look at me and know what I am thinking. I try to avoid eye contact as I think this way they won't know what's going on in my mind. I think that people are watching my every move. Like someone sent people to watch me. I look out windows wondering who is out there today.
I do hear things in my head, not sure if its just me though. The things telling how useless I am, to keep taking pills. (laxatives), that this is the answer. To not eat, cause I am fat and ugly enough. They or I tell myself to do this, to be in control. I tell myself that this is my way out.
But is this really considered schizoaffective? I don't think so. I am a cutter, sometimes. Its the voice inside my head that convinces me that I will better after harming myself, and holds to be true for a short time. (sigh).
Haunting