Hey guys, thanks so much for all your support since I have been part of the forum. After much thought, I decided it is no longer good for me to have the internet so I am getting it disconnected, it has just become something I am using to avoid being around people. I am spending all my time alone and I dont answer my phone, I just sit and worry and I can't stop. So, I don't think it is healthy for me to live like this and I have to do something drastic so I am forced to leave my home and talk to people. Maybe I would if I didn't have the internet to fall back on, I don't know. I have to try something, so two more days and its gone, Its a bit scary but maybe I will get it again one day when I feel like I have my life under a little more control. I really appreciate everything you guys have done for me and all the advice and kindness. This site is amazing, best one around, really.