I have no idea what to say. All I know is that I am not happy with very much that I do at all. I am not saying that EVERYTHING has been miserable, but a great deal of it. It's not because I am ungrateful. I know that I have a lot more than many on this planet, but the way I feel about it isn't much better. I feel nothing most of the time. I am a liar most of the time. I cannot tell people the truth because I believe most people either don't give a **************** or they will just try to run you down even more. At least that's the way it seems to me or maybe that's just how I feel. There are some who have seemed to care, but they are few and far between. I think I could count them with my fingers. I feel like things are never going to change. I am afraid of myself and of others. I have been in and out of relationships, drugs and alcohol. I have been social at times and very antisocial at others. I really don't want to know anyone else because I don't want to screw things up or have someone screw me. That's about all I can handle saying without getting all confused.
I found this forum by searching. I think I was interested because it is a place where I can leave my thoughts so that others might know how I am feeling without being judged. Also, I would like to see how others like myself are dealing with life. As far as interests go, eventually everything I might be interested in that is "good" for me I also lose interest in. Not for a short time either. Life seems so useless day after day. I thought I was getting better, but I don't believe it now.:lies::adminpower:
I found this forum by searching. I think I was interested because it is a place where I can leave my thoughts so that others might know how I am feeling without being judged. Also, I would like to see how others like myself are dealing with life. As far as interests go, eventually everything I might be interested in that is "good" for me I also lose interest in. Not for a short time either. Life seems so useless day after day. I thought I was getting better, but I don't believe it now.:lies::adminpower: