Johanino
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Well...what is there to say? I don't want to talk too much about my diagnoses (there's about 3 of them) because I'm not so much a girl who is x or y but more a girl in recovery 
. I'm currently doing the W.R.A.P (wellness recovery action plan by Mary Ellen Copeland) and also as part of that working on the Happiness Trap by Russ Harris with my nurse. I see her about once a week. I also see a consultant psychiatrist about once every 2 months.
I have progressed so much since starting with the Rehab and Outreach team you would not believe! I can barely believe it myself. I am a christian (calvinist or wee wee free as we say in these parts - bible believing and really shouldn't be on here on Sabbath but hey ho) and find reading the puritans extremely good for my mental health. I try and read them once a day but don't always succeed. Currently I'm reading the Christian in Complete Armour (abridged) by William Gurnall - published by Banner of Truth. I found vol 1 particularly good on my brand of voices (namely Satan/Simon and the teenage girls which I believe are demons) and chap 6 of vol 2 is helping my paranoia (fear of persecution of the christians basically but this can go off on tangents. Like big ones. Eg. Sometimes I can believe the CIA have put cameras in my bathroom to spy on me when I'm taking a bath/shower etc. I can also believe the tv/computer is alive and is trying to send me messages etc. But this has lessened considerably since I got rid of the TV in July of this year). I also like the Pocket Puritans (2 sermon wee books - very cheap) published by Banner etc. and VERY relevant to modern society.
Anyhow I digress (tee hee). I find myself in a position now where I'm perfectly content being single (so no one need chat me up!) and like looking at some point to work. Alas the ED (my one illness that I don't have the wellness world view on) is still playing up so until that's fixed I can neither work, nor quit the cigs. At least I'm getting help for that now. More than I did when I had my last relapse 10 years ago. I've had it for about 15 years and I call it my silent self harm though the lowest I've gotten down to is about 110lbs which is not life or death but still. I'm a tall wee lassie and it was underweight. I've also been up as high as 205lbs 2 years ago but got rid of that by healthy eating via a site called Sparkpeople which retaught me how to eat healthily and was cheap (and is really a lifestyle site more than a diet site - my name is the same as on here on SP btw). I lost 3 stone (about 40lbs) in 6 months on that site and now with the ED playing up I've lost about 20lbs in the last year. So I'm actually a healthy weight but due to my massive weight loss my tail bone sticks out in the bath/on hard chairs etc which is not so pleasant.
I live in social housing and am perfectly happy here and am on welfare for now. Not ideal being on welfare but hey ho - tis life. I get enough money. God supplies all my needs anyways (but not my wants. Not least if they're bad for me). The budget is still a constant battle though with 1/4 of my income going on debt per month but that's life. I'm not grumblng. Just seeking prayer if there's any likeminded individuals on this forum. Everyone has their trials. The debt keeps me relying on the Lord and humble so it's really bad turned good if you get what I mean.
Rehab have gotten my independence back in a nutshell and made me realize I can cope and I do have the resources - either online or on the phone. They have been such a blessing :2thumbs:
And that's about it. I have a twin whom I'm divorced from (her name is H) and my father died about 9 or 8 years ago (I forget). I also enjoy knitting/crochet and crafts and am addicted to coffee LOL (one of my drugs of abuse. The other is nicotine tee hee.). That alone has it's downsides (I now have gastritis). I was born and raised in England but I came up here about 10 years ago in full blown psychosis and to be able to go to a decent presbyterian church.
Want anymore info? Check me out on Sparkpeople....
Every blessing
J
. I'm currently doing the W.R.A.P (wellness recovery action plan by Mary Ellen Copeland) and also as part of that working on the Happiness Trap by Russ Harris with my nurse. I see her about once a week. I also see a consultant psychiatrist about once every 2 months.I have progressed so much since starting with the Rehab and Outreach team you would not believe! I can barely believe it myself. I am a christian (calvinist or wee wee free as we say in these parts - bible believing and really shouldn't be on here on Sabbath but hey ho) and find reading the puritans extremely good for my mental health. I try and read them once a day but don't always succeed. Currently I'm reading the Christian in Complete Armour (abridged) by William Gurnall - published by Banner of Truth. I found vol 1 particularly good on my brand of voices (namely Satan/Simon and the teenage girls which I believe are demons) and chap 6 of vol 2 is helping my paranoia (fear of persecution of the christians basically but this can go off on tangents. Like big ones. Eg. Sometimes I can believe the CIA have put cameras in my bathroom to spy on me when I'm taking a bath/shower etc. I can also believe the tv/computer is alive and is trying to send me messages etc. But this has lessened considerably since I got rid of the TV in July of this year
). I also like the Pocket Puritans (2 sermon wee books - very cheap) published by Banner etc. and VERY relevant to modern society.Anyhow I digress (tee hee). I find myself in a position now where I'm perfectly content being single (so no one need chat me up!) and like looking at some point to work. Alas the ED (my one illness that I don't have the wellness world view on) is still playing up so until that's fixed I can neither work, nor quit the cigs. At least I'm getting help for that now. More than I did when I had my last relapse 10 years ago. I've had it for about 15 years and I call it my silent self harm though the lowest I've gotten down to is about 110lbs which is not life or death but still. I'm a tall wee lassie and it was underweight. I've also been up as high as 205lbs 2 years ago but got rid of that by healthy eating via a site called Sparkpeople which retaught me how to eat healthily and was cheap (and is really a lifestyle site more than a diet site - my name is the same as on here on SP btw
). I lost 3 stone (about 40lbs) in 6 months on that site and now with the ED playing up I've lost about 20lbs in the last year. So I'm actually a healthy weight but due to my massive weight loss my tail bone sticks out in the bath/on hard chairs etc which is not so pleasant.I live in social housing and am perfectly happy here and am on welfare for now. Not ideal being on welfare but hey ho - tis life. I get enough money. God supplies all my needs anyways (but not my wants. Not least if they're bad for me). The budget is still a constant battle though with 1/4 of my income going on debt per month but that's life. I'm not grumblng. Just seeking prayer if there's any likeminded individuals on this forum. Everyone has their trials. The debt keeps me relying on the Lord and humble so it's really bad turned good if you get what I mean.
Rehab have gotten my independence back in a nutshell and made me realize I can cope and I do have the resources - either online or on the phone. They have been such a blessing :2thumbs:
And that's about it. I have a twin whom I'm divorced from (her name is H) and my father died about 9 or 8 years ago (I forget). I also enjoy knitting/crochet and crafts and am addicted to coffee LOL (one of my drugs of abuse. The other is nicotine tee hee.). That alone has it's downsides (I now have gastritis). I was born and raised in England but I came up here about 10 years ago in full blown psychosis and to be able to go to a decent presbyterian church.
Want anymore info? Check me out on Sparkpeople....
Every blessing
J
