Although my problem in question is not really known to me, it is somewhere between what most would dismiss as the paranormal and psychological problems.
I am currently a 17 year old boy, Im fine,with my grades and usual life as they should be. What affects me is totally behind what everyone knows and is subtle to the point that only i myself have begun to realize it when someone commented i behaved like a "gay".
It all starts out when i was say around 13-14 when i was going through the start of puberty. At that point i seem to have this really strong ability to perform subconscious clairvoyance (not sure if its correct) as in that i seem to be able to often see events of the future for about 1 to 2 minutes in my dreams (this isnt accurate and i only remember certain dreams that have a significant impact on me) and they span anywhere from 1 to 2 weeks ahead of the current time. I usually dismissed this as weird dreams (presuming i can even remember them when i wake up) but i only started noticing that events usually play out just as i have dreamt and i could not dismiss it any longer. i grew older and this kind of things became less frequent and less poweful and i soon forgot it altogether.
But from then on starting from 15 years old,i seem to start behaving like a girl for no apparent reason without myself noticing it. For example a friend of mine would comment that i was a "faggot" because i unknowingly crossed my legs like a female and when i stood up to walk to the bathroom i was swaying my butts (and it was extremely embarrasing when they saw me like that,also i am not a transgendered person) although when they comment on me and i have corrected myself, i start having effeminate ways of moving my body,e.g. propping my head up with the back of my hand instead of my knuckles, crossing my legs thigh to thigh rather than knee/calf to thigh, and all sorts of things. my usual quiet, stay-away-from-me self became talkative and fond of gossip, i started making friends with girls way easier than the guys since i would somehow find something in common with them. i start to refer to myself as one Shalaiin (a girls name) rather than using my real name (i wont put my real name) for no reason. and i also seem to have so many traits of a feminine mindset (including memories ive never participated in) even though when i snap out of it i return to my real self.
I do not know whether this is a sexual phase im going through as a teenager, nor whether my behaviour and my pass experiences as a non-psychic clairvoyant are related, nor do i know whether its paranormal or something science can do. but i have so far not approached anyone about this since it is not easy for others to accept because i am not suffering from any normal psychological problem. most dismiss my idea on clairvoyance as mere delusion.
I am currently a 17 year old boy, Im fine,with my grades and usual life as they should be. What affects me is totally behind what everyone knows and is subtle to the point that only i myself have begun to realize it when someone commented i behaved like a "gay".
It all starts out when i was say around 13-14 when i was going through the start of puberty. At that point i seem to have this really strong ability to perform subconscious clairvoyance (not sure if its correct) as in that i seem to be able to often see events of the future for about 1 to 2 minutes in my dreams (this isnt accurate and i only remember certain dreams that have a significant impact on me) and they span anywhere from 1 to 2 weeks ahead of the current time. I usually dismissed this as weird dreams (presuming i can even remember them when i wake up) but i only started noticing that events usually play out just as i have dreamt and i could not dismiss it any longer. i grew older and this kind of things became less frequent and less poweful and i soon forgot it altogether.
But from then on starting from 15 years old,i seem to start behaving like a girl for no apparent reason without myself noticing it. For example a friend of mine would comment that i was a "faggot" because i unknowingly crossed my legs like a female and when i stood up to walk to the bathroom i was swaying my butts (and it was extremely embarrasing when they saw me like that,also i am not a transgendered person) although when they comment on me and i have corrected myself, i start having effeminate ways of moving my body,e.g. propping my head up with the back of my hand instead of my knuckles, crossing my legs thigh to thigh rather than knee/calf to thigh, and all sorts of things. my usual quiet, stay-away-from-me self became talkative and fond of gossip, i started making friends with girls way easier than the guys since i would somehow find something in common with them. i start to refer to myself as one Shalaiin (a girls name) rather than using my real name (i wont put my real name) for no reason. and i also seem to have so many traits of a feminine mindset (including memories ive never participated in) even though when i snap out of it i return to my real self.
I do not know whether this is a sexual phase im going through as a teenager, nor whether my behaviour and my pass experiences as a non-psychic clairvoyant are related, nor do i know whether its paranormal or something science can do. but i have so far not approached anyone about this since it is not easy for others to accept because i am not suffering from any normal psychological problem. most dismiss my idea on clairvoyance as mere delusion.
