HotthenCold
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I know that no one can tell me definitively whether or not my medication is working, but I'm going to lay out what it was like and what it is now like, and see if anyone thinks I might still benefit from a change in dosage or medication altogether?
I've dealt with depression, OCD, and anxiety most of my life. Also, a daily addiction to alcohol and I was using cocaine and MDMA for a few years, on the weekends. I think it matters to specify the amount and frequency because I know that very frequent use has a greater chance of significantly altering brain function. I probably used enough cocaine and MDMA to experience changes, but not enough to have caused trauma. I should also mention that I've been sober for 11 months, so I'm experiencing new emotions, moods, capabilities, and all of the mood swings that come from new found sobriety (not to mention actually having to deal with life instead of blacking it out).
So that's that background.
I started taking an SNRI last year (pristine) 50mg, once daily.
I believe it has improved my overall mood. I still get depressed and still have frequent OCD symptoms, but the degree is less and when I get depressed I am usually able to find some light at the end of the tunnel and I don't linger there as long as I used to. Also I find that I have a lot of really good days, and am able to deal with life and believe that things will get better.
However, as I said before, I still do have frequent bouts of depressive thoughts and OCD symptoms, enough to the degree that it's causing me to wonder if I could expect more from my medication, or if this is just the normal amount of worry and sadness that one is likely to face in this crazy world.
So to summarize:
Felt horrendous for most of my life, especially that few years before this last 11 months. Started medication about 6 months ago. Having lots of good days but still lots of deeply distressing thoughts and OCD symptoms, although they are much less in duration and frequency than before. Should I up my dosage or switch meds, or just try this for a while longer?
Thoughts?
I've dealt with depression, OCD, and anxiety most of my life. Also, a daily addiction to alcohol and I was using cocaine and MDMA for a few years, on the weekends. I think it matters to specify the amount and frequency because I know that very frequent use has a greater chance of significantly altering brain function. I probably used enough cocaine and MDMA to experience changes, but not enough to have caused trauma. I should also mention that I've been sober for 11 months, so I'm experiencing new emotions, moods, capabilities, and all of the mood swings that come from new found sobriety (not to mention actually having to deal with life instead of blacking it out).
So that's that background.
I started taking an SNRI last year (pristine) 50mg, once daily.
I believe it has improved my overall mood. I still get depressed and still have frequent OCD symptoms, but the degree is less and when I get depressed I am usually able to find some light at the end of the tunnel and I don't linger there as long as I used to. Also I find that I have a lot of really good days, and am able to deal with life and believe that things will get better.
However, as I said before, I still do have frequent bouts of depressive thoughts and OCD symptoms, enough to the degree that it's causing me to wonder if I could expect more from my medication, or if this is just the normal amount of worry and sadness that one is likely to face in this crazy world.
So to summarize:
Felt horrendous for most of my life, especially that few years before this last 11 months. Started medication about 6 months ago. Having lots of good days but still lots of deeply distressing thoughts and OCD symptoms, although they are much less in duration and frequency than before. Should I up my dosage or switch meds, or just try this for a while longer?
Thoughts?