Nice to find a Canadian forum for mental health

[LoneWolfie]

Where to start, I was diagnosed with borderline personality disorder 9 months ago. It is something I have struggled with for years, after my fourth major depressive episode in which I couldn't get out of bed let along go to work, I called a crisis line and had a team to my house two weeks in a row. I was able to see a psychiatrist and get my bpd diagnosed, I was hospitalizated for almost 6 weeks just after Christmas into mid Feb.

I see have not been on any anti depressants for 2 months, and I am severely depressed and yet my psychiatrist seems reluctant to prescribe any. I was put on Cymbalta which only made my anger worse so I was weaned off and told I would be put on something else and a mood stabilizer, it hasn't happened. I am taking 2mg of Abilify for anxiety and that is it for psychiatric drugs.

I have not worked since Nov. 21, 2011. I see a psychiatrist once a week for at least an hour usually a little more than an hour. I have an ACT worker who I am wondering what her role is in all this, as she only sits in on my appointments with pdoc.

Right now I am so desperate to find some light to shine on me, I have been slipping farther into darkness with each passing day.

Got brains and intelligence, do a lot of writing that is given to my care team several times a week so they know most of my thoughts.

I'm just so tired of fighting this, yet everyday I find some strength to carry on but on what level I question at this point.

Thanks,

LW

 

[Andy]

Welcome to Psychlinks LoneWolfie!:2thumbs:

 

[Cat Dancer]

Welcome!

 

[rdw]

Welcome and proud to be Canadian eh! I hope you find the help and support you need.

 

[Retired]

Welcome to Psychlinks, LW. Glad you found us and we look forward to your participation.

Let us know how we can help.

 

[grapefruit968]

Welcome, LW - Hope your experience here turns out great!

 

[Banned]

Welcome, LW.There are quite a few resources on this site regarding DBT which is very effective for treating bpd. Are you comfortable asking your psychiatrist again about medication?

 

[LoneWolfie]

Thank you for the warm welcome.

Hi Turtle, honestly I am afraid to mention meds again. I have mentioned it and I have do it in writing also. At this point even my wife has said do you want me to write the psychiatrist or come to one of your appointments. My wife is the one living with me and dealing with me on a daily basis. Yes I saw that there are lots of resources for DBT, I am starting an intensive 15 week program mid Sept.

LW

 

[bloodwood]

Hi Lonewolfie,
My girlfriend has had trouble because they have trouble finding the right combo of drugs to suit her condition. Doctors often talk about the trial and error process of fitting the person with the drug because of how we are all a bit different. Over time she is doing better as they find the right chemical balance for her. Helping her feel less depressed and more stable without feeling dull, sleepy or numb. I know that some people and some conditions are more problematic.

"I'm just so tired of fighting this..."
This is a sentiment many of us have felt. Give it time, take a break when you need to and treat yourself well.

I welcome you to the forum, there are a lot of good people here and I wish you all the best.

 

[AmZ]

Hi LW,

I also have been diagnosed with BPD so can relate.

I'm sure you'll get some great advice here. Make sure to stick around.

And welcome

 

[momof5]

Hi Lonewolf,

Welcome to the forum, it is good to have you aboard.

It is also good to hear that your wife is participating in your treatment. Having a spouse that knows what is going on is, to me at least, a great thing to have.

Just stay with us, there are many here that could help you out. When you are really down and out, just come and post and let us know. Always reach out. Never stop doing this.

I understand the tiredness of it all. Sometimes fighting what we have wrong with us can get to us at times. This is when we really need to reach out to others.