Michelle M
Member
l think night time is the hardest for me. l think back to my past, being young with so much hope and missed opprotunities by my own hand and l lived to be a Mother. l wanted a good husband who would love and want me as much as l loved and wanted him. Everyone seemed to have it all, while l accepted any attention he offered me and l wish l had been emotionally strong enough to kick him to the curb and wait for a suitable man who wanted the same things l did.
My life has always been one struggle to the next and l did not have much time to be a child because my mother was always so emotionally needy.
l grew up with dreams and so much time that seemed endless. Now, at 54, l don't have the strength or endurance l once did and l see myself aging faster with each coming year...l have never found the love, happiness or any remaining children in my life..l lay in the dark just wishing l had more time as it passes so fast now.
l remember being a young girl, wishing time to speed up so l could be a grown up, but all the promises that came with it, l let slip through my fingers.
Tonight, as l laid in the black of my bedroom, the Beatles song "Yesterday" popped in my head and it was then l truly understood the words of the song..l try so hard to think positive, support my friends and maintain a healthy distance from people who hurt me, but it is me that hurts myself the most in realizing all the people l loved the most are gone. When l am alone at night thinking back to Yesterday......
My life has always been one struggle to the next and l did not have much time to be a child because my mother was always so emotionally needy.
l grew up with dreams and so much time that seemed endless. Now, at 54, l don't have the strength or endurance l once did and l see myself aging faster with each coming year...l have never found the love, happiness or any remaining children in my life..l lay in the dark just wishing l had more time as it passes so fast now.
l remember being a young girl, wishing time to speed up so l could be a grown up, but all the promises that came with it, l let slip through my fingers.
Tonight, as l laid in the black of my bedroom, the Beatles song "Yesterday" popped in my head and it was then l truly understood the words of the song..l try so hard to think positive, support my friends and maintain a healthy distance from people who hurt me, but it is me that hurts myself the most in realizing all the people l loved the most are gone. When l am alone at night thinking back to Yesterday......
