I am really down today. I could not go to the doctors today as my son was ill. He had a headache for the most part of the day. But he was feeling better tonight (and was behaving terribly).
Tears keep creaping up on me and thoughts racing through wishing for and end. I am swelling alot, and bloated. My ankles, hands, and tummy are all puffing out and just looking at myself tonight makes me sick. I was okay for a short time but feeling like "what's the point?" I can feel alright for a few days but then this suicidal wish comes back. I hate dealing with these urges of self harm, which death seems so much better right now.
I feel lost again. So sad inside that I would give anything to take this away. Then I won't be lost anymore. I would not have to feel anymore. And the pain all over my body would cease to exsist. I am tired. Let me hide away in some kind of world where I can't remember, can't feel, can't hurt. I want to go............
Haunting
Tears keep creaping up on me and thoughts racing through wishing for and end. I am swelling alot, and bloated. My ankles, hands, and tummy are all puffing out and just looking at myself tonight makes me sick. I was okay for a short time but feeling like "what's the point?" I can feel alright for a few days but then this suicidal wish comes back. I hate dealing with these urges of self harm, which death seems so much better right now.
I feel lost again. So sad inside that I would give anything to take this away. Then I won't be lost anymore. I would not have to feel anymore. And the pain all over my body would cease to exsist. I am tired. Let me hide away in some kind of world where I can't remember, can't feel, can't hurt. I want to go............
Haunting