Is there phobia for the fear of people... if so, I think I might just have that.
This comes from a very painful experience a long time ago and since then it's just always been shadowing over me. The funny thing is, I actually love people, they interest me and I love learning about different people, but the moment I'm around them, I get scared and crawl into my shell.
Mostly I'm actually quite confident, but the moment I'm around people (whether it be friends or relationship), I just "shut down" - obviously relationships a bit more pressure. It's not a concience choice either, but it just seems to out of my control that I just don't know what to do about it. I'm at a point that when ever I do go and visit someone, I take some sort of alcoholic drink with in the hopes that it might relax me. That's not right or normal? Apart from that, I don't particularly like myself either when I drink too much.
I do attract a lot of people, but only because I'm looked as being pretty, but means absolutely nothing to me. I want people to take the time to get to know me for who I am and not because of a pretty face. Look, I am very blessed to have a pretty face, but I would trade it any day to just be comfortable around people. I know I am not a bad person compared to so many people out there, but I do consider myself boring in the company of others and yet at the same time I am game for anything and quite adventurous. It's more the verbal part that's a problem.
Is there a way that a person can get over this fear or deal with it somehow? I NEVER give up and will always try, but just some times it all just feels so hopeless that I just don't even want to try anymore. I just don't like that feeling of falling flat on your face all the time and therefore just think it's easier and "safer" to just not try anymore. I feel more alone when I'm around people compared to when I'm on my own.
There's really not a lot that I fear, but this one fear of mine just really seems to control my life... because I let it. But how do you get out of it though?
This comes from a very painful experience a long time ago and since then it's just always been shadowing over me. The funny thing is, I actually love people, they interest me and I love learning about different people, but the moment I'm around them, I get scared and crawl into my shell.
Mostly I'm actually quite confident, but the moment I'm around people (whether it be friends or relationship), I just "shut down" - obviously relationships a bit more pressure. It's not a concience choice either, but it just seems to out of my control that I just don't know what to do about it. I'm at a point that when ever I do go and visit someone, I take some sort of alcoholic drink with in the hopes that it might relax me. That's not right or normal? Apart from that, I don't particularly like myself either when I drink too much.
I do attract a lot of people, but only because I'm looked as being pretty, but means absolutely nothing to me. I want people to take the time to get to know me for who I am and not because of a pretty face. Look, I am very blessed to have a pretty face, but I would trade it any day to just be comfortable around people. I know I am not a bad person compared to so many people out there, but I do consider myself boring in the company of others and yet at the same time I am game for anything and quite adventurous. It's more the verbal part that's a problem.
Is there a way that a person can get over this fear or deal with it somehow? I NEVER give up and will always try, but just some times it all just feels so hopeless that I just don't even want to try anymore. I just don't like that feeling of falling flat on your face all the time and therefore just think it's easier and "safer" to just not try anymore. I feel more alone when I'm around people compared to when I'm on my own.
There's really not a lot that I fear, but this one fear of mine just really seems to control my life... because I let it. But how do you get out of it though?