Most of you all know my story I have been through hell and back -
Diagnosed with major depression, CPTSD (complex) - lived in a horrific abusive relationship for 8 years, repeatedly raped, and had to have a abortion, living with abuse from my mother and family members....was bullied at school my whole life ....had little or no friends.....found and stayed in abusive relationships just to feel loved, and needed although I was just used as a punching bag - now fast forward to 2012 ----
I have been struggling with this issue since I have lost so many people since 2008.
My dad died in 2008 ? father-in law in 2009 ? my mom 2010 ? my psychologist 2011 ?
my medical doctor came out of a coma in 2011 ? he was on a ventilator and was close to death ? and ten other people ? friends and family have passed away. My best friend delivered a stillborn baby 2011 my best friend of 15 years died from brain cancer at the
age of 52 in 2012 the list goes on?? all I can see in my daytime and night time (nightmares) and flashbacks are of death, and people
dying?..it is affecting me so much to the point where I don`t want to do anything anymore..death is all I see day and night. it is
getting so harder to function each day. What is the point of doing anything or working towards you are going to die anyways?.and it
has is getting worse and worse?.
My husband had his diabetic seizure and I had to call a ambulance he was not responsive
now it has become more of a problem?..I took time off to help him and take some time off for a much needed rest and break.
But I have not been able to relax or enjoy the time I had off?I was too revved up, I would not sleep, I would watch him sleep,
I could not go to bed for days after the incident. I can not seem to stay asleep any little noise I hear I think he
needs me?or that something is wrong with him. He had suggested going on several drives in the country which normally I would jump at
the offer, but not anymore.
It seems that I have lost all motivation, energy, it is gone, and I don`t know what it is going to take to
come back. I am taking next week off because I am so physically and mentally exhausted that I no longer can fake this to myself,
my husband and my co-workers. While at work, I am falling asleep to the point where I have caught myself several times almost falling
out of my chair. I have fallen asleep at my desk numerous times..
?Hope you can help me with this issue as I am not sure what to do?I will see my doctor in about one month and will tell him in more
detail what is going on with me. He already knows that I am mentally and physically exhausted but all the tests have come back
negative for any illness or thryroid issues.
Have a great weekend, any help that you can offer is most helpful and appreciated.
thanks
Diagnosed with major depression, CPTSD (complex) - lived in a horrific abusive relationship for 8 years, repeatedly raped, and had to have a abortion, living with abuse from my mother and family members....was bullied at school my whole life ....had little or no friends.....found and stayed in abusive relationships just to feel loved, and needed although I was just used as a punching bag - now fast forward to 2012 ----
I have been struggling with this issue since I have lost so many people since 2008.
My dad died in 2008 ? father-in law in 2009 ? my mom 2010 ? my psychologist 2011 ?
my medical doctor came out of a coma in 2011 ? he was on a ventilator and was close to death ? and ten other people ? friends and family have passed away. My best friend delivered a stillborn baby 2011 my best friend of 15 years died from brain cancer at the
age of 52 in 2012 the list goes on?? all I can see in my daytime and night time (nightmares) and flashbacks are of death, and people
dying?..it is affecting me so much to the point where I don`t want to do anything anymore..death is all I see day and night. it is
getting so harder to function each day. What is the point of doing anything or working towards you are going to die anyways?.and it
has is getting worse and worse?.
My husband had his diabetic seizure and I had to call a ambulance he was not responsive
now it has become more of a problem?..I took time off to help him and take some time off for a much needed rest and break.
But I have not been able to relax or enjoy the time I had off?I was too revved up, I would not sleep, I would watch him sleep,
I could not go to bed for days after the incident. I can not seem to stay asleep any little noise I hear I think he
needs me?or that something is wrong with him. He had suggested going on several drives in the country which normally I would jump at
the offer, but not anymore.
It seems that I have lost all motivation, energy, it is gone, and I don`t know what it is going to take to
come back. I am taking next week off because I am so physically and mentally exhausted that I no longer can fake this to myself,
my husband and my co-workers. While at work, I am falling asleep to the point where I have caught myself several times almost falling
out of my chair. I have fallen asleep at my desk numerous times..
?Hope you can help me with this issue as I am not sure what to do?I will see my doctor in about one month and will tell him in more
detail what is going on with me. He already knows that I am mentally and physically exhausted but all the tests have come back
negative for any illness or thryroid issues.
Have a great weekend, any help that you can offer is most helpful and appreciated.
thanks
