- Jun 22, 2005
hello , i have just started a relationship with a boy i have know for about 2 years now and he knows me very well through my hospitalisations and everything but the only thing he does not know is that i am back to my old habbits well he knows but just not how sever it has gotten and he already told me that he will not force me to eat or yell at me if i don't eat but he told me the day that i decide that i want really out he will do everything he can to get me out of this and get me the help i need i don'T know how to tell him that i am deteriorating cause i don't want him on top of my famill and friends to start worrying about me althugh my familly and friends have no clue i don't know if i should tell.. i really love him but i also don't want him to have to deel with this like i am having to .. i have been deteriorating more every day my 18th b-day is getting close and i am thinking of moving out of home and living alone therefor not having to worry about food and all that but i don't know anymore i am fighting i have not gotten news about the therapie. and my social worker is still not there i am losing it and i have now a boyfriend to worry about.,. i passed out in gym class the other day and i had to work my way outof going to the hospital by telling them i just hit my head and fell thats all? they did not believe me but they trusted me i guess .. i don't know how i am going to manage to get out of a similar situation if it occurs again i am freeking out..