johnwilliams
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Hi guys,
I?d like to talk to you guys about some problems I?ve been having in my life for several years now, problems that I?ve never taken the time before now to put in words. These problems which I think are psychological in their nature are holding my personal and professional life back, I?m here hoping that perhaps one of you guys has had or lived through the same challenges that I face every day. I have not consulted yet; I wanted to get some feedback before I do. First off, I?d like to start by saying I am a 28 year old man, I am physically healthy, never had any major health issues, I have a bachelor?s degree in management, I got through University (school in general) with grades which are above average, I have no family history of mental illness and up until recently I had been working for the same company for about 3 years.
I?ll begin by listing the ?symptoms? or problems I?ve been experiencing. These are listed in order of how I feel they affect my life (#1 being the symptom which I feel affects me the most):
1. Problems organizing thoughts before communicating them
I have difficulty organizing my ideas before communicating them; an idea is usually built around the diamond principle where you usually bring people into the idea you?re trying to communicate to them by being very general before getting into the details of what you are trying to communicate (the arguments) after which you conclude by bringing them back to the initial idea you?re trying to communicate. I tend to totally bypass that system going directly from the introduction to the conclusion or from the argumentation phase to the conclusion. I have a lot of difficulty creating and structuring an idea in my head which makes it difficult for other people to sometimes understand me.
2. Problems finding the proper words in a regular conversation
I will very often hunt for the right word to use in a conversation to explain what I?m trying to say, lacking to remember the proper word, instead I?ll very often use words which are inappropriate or too unfamiliar for the type of conversation I?m in.
3. Pronunciation problems
I will very oftentimes slur certain words while trying to pronounce them; this is not a problem I have all the time, I would say perhaps half of the time, lack of sleep makes the slurring much worse.
4. Memory blank
I?m unsure as to if this symptom is linked to the other ones listed, the only thing I know is that it sometimes happens that in the middle of saying something, usually in a moment of stress (for instance: a presentation of some sort in front of a group of people), my mind will completely switch subjects which means that I totally lose my train of thought, I would compare it to a computer rebooting while you?re working on an important document. Many times, I?ll be able to pick up where I left off but it usually makes for an awkward situation because of the moment of silence where I scramble to recover my thoughts.
5. I?ll say things in certain situations that I don?t want to say, afterwards I?ll often ask myself: ?why the hell did I say that?.
Sometimes I will be saying something to someone and for no apparent reason I will be ending a sentence with words I did not intentionally want to use. It is as if while trying to finish my sentence, my mind has already wandered off elsewhere and finished the sentence with whatever word it could find to finish it (nothing too embarrassing?however usually a word or series of words that does not belong there)
These problems are making my life quite difficult; especially in circumstances where I need to perform and where communication is key (my career). What I might add is that all of these symptoms are amplified when I am put in potentially stressful situations (ex: public speaking or if I?m being pressured by someone; ex: situation of conflict).
I believe I?ve had these problems for quite some time certainly since the end of elementary or beginning of high school. I?ve come to think after so many years that these problems are normal, that somehow in time I would become better in certain areas and find a way to put these problems behind me, actually until just recently that?s what I thought...until I got out of University, started work and had a steady-routine way of life for the past three years (sleep; work; sleep!). Wanting to perform in my work, I started listening more carefully to my body and started to realize a pattern in how my body reacted. This is what lead me to suspect something was wrong?.actually I do not have the psychological problems listed above all the time. It seems that every 3-4 weeks I have usually 2 to 4 days where I feel much lighter psychologically speaking. During this period, my thoughts are clear and structured and they are expressed in that fashion, I feel mentally ?fitter? as a result ?quicker on the trigger?, I am usually more outgoing (I will socialize more with people), I also feel like I?m in a much better mood overall (i am not sure if its necessarily linked to not having the problems above, I feel better! I also react much better to adversity when put in difficult situations my stress level is lower and the right words will come out at the right time. Honestly, it?s troubling to know that sometimes I can perform to my potential and that on other occasions I have trouble making a complete sentence when speaking to someone.
One thing that might be worth mentioning is that when I started work, I would sometimes work these crazy hours (50-60 hrs a week), as a result I would usually go to bed pretty late and get 5-6 hours of sleep which didn?t the symptoms I?d been having. After a while of doing these crazy hours at work, I tried to get more sleep (8-9 hrs of sleep) which in a sense helped my symptoms not get any worse but at the same time it didn?t really make things better either. What I think made the most difference for my symptoms was combining about 8-9 hours of sleep on regular schedule (going to bed every night at 9h00 for instance). This helped a bit but did not make the symptoms and cycle go away. Also, the symptoms I?m having seemed to phase in and out; after having my 2-4 days of grace, I?ll usually phase out and have probably a week where the symptoms come back before getting into a week where the symptoms are pretty bad after which things seem to be getting better?the cycle just repeats itself over and over.
Thanks for reading! ?hopefully you guys will be able to share some knowledge if you?ve experience something similar to what has been impairing my life for quite a while.
Best regards
John
I?d like to talk to you guys about some problems I?ve been having in my life for several years now, problems that I?ve never taken the time before now to put in words. These problems which I think are psychological in their nature are holding my personal and professional life back, I?m here hoping that perhaps one of you guys has had or lived through the same challenges that I face every day. I have not consulted yet; I wanted to get some feedback before I do. First off, I?d like to start by saying I am a 28 year old man, I am physically healthy, never had any major health issues, I have a bachelor?s degree in management, I got through University (school in general) with grades which are above average, I have no family history of mental illness and up until recently I had been working for the same company for about 3 years.
I?ll begin by listing the ?symptoms? or problems I?ve been experiencing. These are listed in order of how I feel they affect my life (#1 being the symptom which I feel affects me the most):
1. Problems organizing thoughts before communicating them
I have difficulty organizing my ideas before communicating them; an idea is usually built around the diamond principle where you usually bring people into the idea you?re trying to communicate to them by being very general before getting into the details of what you are trying to communicate (the arguments) after which you conclude by bringing them back to the initial idea you?re trying to communicate. I tend to totally bypass that system going directly from the introduction to the conclusion or from the argumentation phase to the conclusion. I have a lot of difficulty creating and structuring an idea in my head which makes it difficult for other people to sometimes understand me.
2. Problems finding the proper words in a regular conversation
I will very often hunt for the right word to use in a conversation to explain what I?m trying to say, lacking to remember the proper word, instead I?ll very often use words which are inappropriate or too unfamiliar for the type of conversation I?m in.
3. Pronunciation problems
I will very oftentimes slur certain words while trying to pronounce them; this is not a problem I have all the time, I would say perhaps half of the time, lack of sleep makes the slurring much worse.
4. Memory blank
I?m unsure as to if this symptom is linked to the other ones listed, the only thing I know is that it sometimes happens that in the middle of saying something, usually in a moment of stress (for instance: a presentation of some sort in front of a group of people), my mind will completely switch subjects which means that I totally lose my train of thought, I would compare it to a computer rebooting while you?re working on an important document. Many times, I?ll be able to pick up where I left off but it usually makes for an awkward situation because of the moment of silence where I scramble to recover my thoughts.
5. I?ll say things in certain situations that I don?t want to say, afterwards I?ll often ask myself: ?why the hell did I say that?.
Sometimes I will be saying something to someone and for no apparent reason I will be ending a sentence with words I did not intentionally want to use. It is as if while trying to finish my sentence, my mind has already wandered off elsewhere and finished the sentence with whatever word it could find to finish it (nothing too embarrassing?however usually a word or series of words that does not belong there)
These problems are making my life quite difficult; especially in circumstances where I need to perform and where communication is key (my career). What I might add is that all of these symptoms are amplified when I am put in potentially stressful situations (ex: public speaking or if I?m being pressured by someone; ex: situation of conflict).
I believe I?ve had these problems for quite some time certainly since the end of elementary or beginning of high school. I?ve come to think after so many years that these problems are normal, that somehow in time I would become better in certain areas and find a way to put these problems behind me, actually until just recently that?s what I thought...until I got out of University, started work and had a steady-routine way of life for the past three years (sleep; work; sleep!). Wanting to perform in my work, I started listening more carefully to my body and started to realize a pattern in how my body reacted. This is what lead me to suspect something was wrong?.actually I do not have the psychological problems listed above all the time. It seems that every 3-4 weeks I have usually 2 to 4 days where I feel much lighter psychologically speaking. During this period, my thoughts are clear and structured and they are expressed in that fashion, I feel mentally ?fitter? as a result ?quicker on the trigger?, I am usually more outgoing (I will socialize more with people), I also feel like I?m in a much better mood overall (i am not sure if its necessarily linked to not having the problems above, I feel better! I also react much better to adversity when put in difficult situations my stress level is lower and the right words will come out at the right time. Honestly, it?s troubling to know that sometimes I can perform to my potential and that on other occasions I have trouble making a complete sentence when speaking to someone.
One thing that might be worth mentioning is that when I started work, I would sometimes work these crazy hours (50-60 hrs a week), as a result I would usually go to bed pretty late and get 5-6 hours of sleep which didn?t the symptoms I?d been having. After a while of doing these crazy hours at work, I tried to get more sleep (8-9 hrs of sleep) which in a sense helped my symptoms not get any worse but at the same time it didn?t really make things better either. What I think made the most difference for my symptoms was combining about 8-9 hours of sleep on regular schedule (going to bed every night at 9h00 for instance). This helped a bit but did not make the symptoms and cycle go away. Also, the symptoms I?m having seemed to phase in and out; after having my 2-4 days of grace, I?ll usually phase out and have probably a week where the symptoms come back before getting into a week where the symptoms are pretty bad after which things seem to be getting better?the cycle just repeats itself over and over.
Thanks for reading! ?hopefully you guys will be able to share some knowledge if you?ve experience something similar to what has been impairing my life for quite a while.
Best regards
John
