When I disconnect emotionally sometimes it's so intense I feel totally dissociated. Sometimes my medications would cause this. It's like I was a human video camera just.... watching. People come into view (into the room) and I cannot feel their presence at all. It's quite distressing. Especially when they feel it too and look at me and wonder what's wrong - but it's as if they're really wondering where I am.
From Pink Floyd's "Comfortably Numb":
There is no pain you are receding
A distant ship, smoke on the horizon.
You are only coming through in waves.
Your lips move but I can't hear what you're saying.
When I was a child
I caught a fleeting glimpse
Out of the corner of my eye
I turned to look but it was gone
I cannot put my finger on it now
The child is grown,
The dream is gone.
I have become comfortably numb.
I took a walk around the world
To ease my troubled mind
I left my body laying somewhere
In the sands of time
But I watched the world float
To the dark side of the moon
I feel there is nothing I can do, yeah
I watched the world float
To the dark side of the moon
After all I knew it had to be
Something to do with you
I really don’t mind what happens now and then
As long as you’ll be my friend at the end
If I go crazy then will you still
Call me Superman
If I’m alive and well, will you be
There a-holding my hand
I’ll keep you by my side
With my superhuman might
Kryptonite
You called me strong, you called me weak,
But still your secrets I will keep
You took for granted all the times
I never let you down
You stumbled in and bumped your head,
If not for me then you'd be dead
I picked you up and put you back
On solid ground
If I go crazy then will you still
Call me Superman
If I’m alive and well,
Will you be there a-holding my hand
I’ll keep you by my side
With my superhuman might
Kryptonite
If I go crazy then will you still
Call me Superman
If I’m alive and well, will you be there
Holding my hand
I’ll keep you by my side
With my superhuman might
Kryptonite
Yeah!!
If I go crazy then will you still
Call me Superman
If I'm alive and well,
Will you be there a-holding my hand
I'll keep you by my side
With my superhuman might
Kryptonite
Yeah!!
The "If I go crazy then will you still call me superman?" line particularly resonates with me.
Hmmmm... more Pink Floyd feelings for me these days. That can't be good...
I was listening to this song and it was almost disturbing that it particularily captured how I felt at that moment.
Literal meaning of the lyrics may not apply, but the feeling of the song fit disturbingly well. I actually turned it off...
"Sorrow", Pink Floyd, from A Momentary Lapse of Reason, 1987
The sweet smell of a great sorrow lies over the land
Plumes of smoke rise and merge into the leaden sky:
A man lies and dreams of green fields and rivers,
But awakes to a morning with no reason for waking
He's haunted by the memory of a lost paradise
In his youth or a dream, he can't be precise
He's chained forever to a world that's departed
It's not enough, it's not enough
His blood has frozen & curdled with fright
His knees have trembled & given way in the night
His hand has weakened at the moment of truth
His step has faltered
One world, one soul
Time pass, the river rolls
It's not enough it's not enough
His hand has faltered
.... .... ......
And he talks to the river of lost love and dedication
And silent replies that swirl invitation
Flow dark and troubled to an oily sea
A grim intimation of what is to be
There's an unceasing wind that blows through this night
And there's dust in my eyes, that blinds my sight
And silence that speaks so much louder that words,
Of promises broken
Lyrics property of Pink Floyd/David Gilmore/Bob Ezrin/EMI
Music has been my mode of escape since my earliest memories and I have come to understand the depths to which I am affected by the type of music I play....I still have my Pink Floyd days and always will but I am glad to be aware now of how strongly it affects me...I have a hard time being anxious when listening to Bob Marley or Grateful Dead so I now try to be aware at least of the mood im in and the music I pick. Peace and love to you all
This song encompasses everything I'm going through right now. I'm living in a verbally/emotionally abusive relationship, and this song resonates with me. Especially the part about "I'm damned if I do and I'm damned if I don't..."
Unwell by Rob Thomas. I heard that this song was inspired by Rob's mom. She had depression also and struggles a lot. I feel a little unwell today so i would like to share it with you.
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