This is what I carry...

[experience]

I am wondering if you have thought about being dissociative for all you life or if you think, at some point, you will be healed and then you will focus and do other things? Like what would I be, do? How would it be for me? Would I have some other kind of disorder or what? I am wondering if anyone else here has ever thought about this. I have and it kind of makes me wonder, as well, if in asking this question I am not being unrealistic? Or am I dissociating by dreaming, wondering... Or, am I just too old and shouldn't be bothered by such a question.

 

[AllyCat]

I have also asked myself that question. It kind of depresses me when I think I might be like this forever. But I would hope that one day I will be "healed" although I think it would be a constant struggle to not "relapse" into the safe feeling of dissociation. You are never too old for anything especially asking questions. Good luck I hope you find the answers.