This is the first time I have participated in a forum, so please bear with me.? I have been addicted to dexedrine for almost 10 years.? I have to, just have to get off this stuff!? This addiction has completely taken over my life: physically, emotionally, spiritually, every part of me has been lost.? I take this drug just to feel normal, but normal is getting lower and lower.? Addicted normal doesn't come close to how I remember normal being before I became addicted.? ?I tryed to stop cold turkey, but became so intensely depressed that I was afraid of suicide.? Now, I am tapering off slowly and I feel like hell.? Can someone please tell me that I won't feel this way forever.? I know that recovery is a slow process.? ?I just want to believe that I will feel normal again.? Thank you..