Thank you all very much..I will go and read that thread again for sure..just gotta let my head settle lol..yeah sick as i said.. You are right..i have had alot of stressors over last month..and yep no wonder i'm sick again and pms is really bad/and extended. There's just so much to work on..and that i have had to deal with that i feel/felt TOTALLY overwhelmed etc..Somehow i'm still here lol.
I don't know whats gong on with parents..but for now i'm going to try very hard to let go..for now..I think i need to..for me
Here is my journal entry for today:
well even tho i feel like crap..big time..PMS and cold again..and well yeah anx. I had to go to the office to sign..so it will be official that my dad is off the lease etc..i had just gotten a call/message about it this am, and well.my heart started going..is still..(cuz of all, and i hateeeeee that small enclosed room, and i'm really nuffy etc) popped a half a xanax and went in my pj's quickly and signed etc..so im done..
but holly i was anx. heart going etc..so i have taken an extra half xanax..no biggy..right? No its not, as I remind myself. I'm allowed to take exra one full pill!
even tho duhhhh it wouldn't of hit me till oh just about now -_- but i didn't want to leave it..so yeah..that's it..
Been a really rough few weeks..and well yeah. God even yest. I had a surprise visit from the landlord cuz they had to inspect units..and haha i hadn't checked my mail the day before..so that was hard..but done.
so maybe, and i'm praying ,that after my rag comes,(next week) ,or now, everything will just settle..and i can just begin to calm/relax and sit back..and recoop..
and start to work on ME again..even tho i'm pretty much back to square one..with all.aka my agora etc.. Still..I'm here..and I made it thru.
Thank you again..so very much..
I'm gonna go lay down for now but will read your posts today for sure again.
((hugs)) Jen
I don't know whats gong on with parents..but for now i'm going to try very hard to let go..for now..I think i need to..for me
Here is my journal entry for today:
well even tho i feel like crap..big time..PMS and cold again..and well yeah anx. I had to go to the office to sign..so it will be official that my dad is off the lease etc..i had just gotten a call/message about it this am, and well.my heart started going..is still..(cuz of all, and i hateeeeee that small enclosed room, and i'm really nuffy etc) popped a half a xanax and went in my pj's quickly and signed etc..so im done..
but holly i was anx. heart going etc..so i have taken an extra half xanax..no biggy..right? No its not, as I remind myself. I'm allowed to take exra one full pill!
even tho duhhhh it wouldn't of hit me till oh just about now -_- but i didn't want to leave it..so yeah..that's it..
Been a really rough few weeks..and well yeah. God even yest. I had a surprise visit from the landlord cuz they had to inspect units..and haha i hadn't checked my mail the day before..so that was hard..but done.
so maybe, and i'm praying ,that after my rag comes,(next week) ,or now, everything will just settle..and i can just begin to calm/relax and sit back..and recoop..
and start to work on ME again..even tho i'm pretty much back to square one..with all.aka my agora etc.. Still..I'm here..and I made it thru.
Thank you again..so very much..
I'm gonna go lay down for now but will read your posts today for sure again.
((hugs)) Jen
