Dear Body,
I am sorry for all the diets I have put you on and for wanting you to go hungry.
I am sorry for the times when I could not stop exercising when you had enough.
I am sorry for the diet pills, binge eating and purging and the destructive things I have done to try to lose weight. I wanted to be smaller, I wanted to feel like everyone else must surely feel.
I am sorry that instead of expressing my gratitude for all that you do for me, I have been ashamed and embarrassed by you.
I thought if you were thinner that I would feel better about myself, I thought you were holding me back in life but instead you gave me life.
It never occurred to me to thank you for protecting me from illness and injury or for allowing me to walk, dance and run.
Each breath is a gift but I couldn't see it.
I am sorry that I demanded that you take up less space in the world thinking that smaller was better, weaker was more acceptable. I didn't see the strength that you gave me, but now I am starting to.
I am sorry for all the diets I have put you on and for wanting you to go hungry.
I am sorry for the times when I could not stop exercising when you had enough.
I am sorry for the diet pills, binge eating and purging and the destructive things I have done to try to lose weight. I wanted to be smaller, I wanted to feel like everyone else must surely feel.
I am sorry that instead of expressing my gratitude for all that you do for me, I have been ashamed and embarrassed by you.
I thought if you were thinner that I would feel better about myself, I thought you were holding me back in life but instead you gave me life.
It never occurred to me to thank you for protecting me from illness and injury or for allowing me to walk, dance and run.
Each breath is a gift but I couldn't see it.
I am sorry that I demanded that you take up less space in the world thinking that smaller was better, weaker was more acceptable. I didn't see the strength that you gave me, but now I am starting to.
