Abused As a Child.

[Curious]

My mother and father were alcoholics and I blamed myself for it. I was not taught anything from my parents about emotions and brought that into my life. I taught myself abut life from books. The child within me never grew into a adult. As a senior citizen I still allow my emotions to rule me, now I question all negative thoughts. I want to blame my Ego for my problems, it seems it has a mind of its own. The word my worth comes to mind. The more I talk about it make me question it (my ego), when my emotions overcome me.

The bottom line to this thread is, "whose in charge of me" high strung

 

[Retired]

Based on this post and your earlier query:

Can one have Add and low self esteem from childhood into adulthood?

Please see:

Silence Your Inner Critic and follow the links within the article, especially this one: How to Stop Negative Thinking: Help for ADHD Adults Battling Defeatism

and this one:

You've Got Adult ADHD ? Now What?
Just diagnosed with adult ADD? Here are the next steps for finding ADHD help and treatment.

 

[forgetmenot]

"whose in charge of me"

You are an adult now so the adult is in charge of YOU ok not the childs emotions that are within you. I get what you are saying i do and emotions and myself well it is hard but YOU as the adult is in charge of you now. So as an adult look over the articles ok take what you can from them get some therapy a therapist can help you make some sense of what you are feeling YOU take charge of you now so you can heal