I was diagnosed with BPD when I was 37. My teens and 20's was full of raging, broken relationships and always on an emotional roller coaster. 30's and 40's I mellowed no more raging. Up until recently I thought my BPD was under control for the most part.
Than I became good friends with a lady that is 16 years older than me. That is when the BPD came back as strong as it was, when I was younger except I still do not rage. Recently we had a huge misunderstanding and I almost lost the friendship. She says that I verbally attacked her in an email.
My side it was a normal correspondence. But I apologized anyway and we were able to talk things out. The problem is she knows I have BPD and I had to promise her to never act BPD again. I am aware when my thoughts go that way and know to use tools until it passes. But still it is like someone telling a person with Major Depression to never be depressed.
I am hoping by coming back here I can get back on the right track again. Cavi
Than I became good friends with a lady that is 16 years older than me. That is when the BPD came back as strong as it was, when I was younger except I still do not rage. Recently we had a huge misunderstanding and I almost lost the friendship. She says that I verbally attacked her in an email.
My side it was a normal correspondence. But I apologized anyway and we were able to talk things out. The problem is she knows I have BPD and I had to promise her to never act BPD again. I am aware when my thoughts go that way and know to use tools until it passes. But still it is like someone telling a person with Major Depression to never be depressed.
I am hoping by coming back here I can get back on the right track again. Cavi
