greenstarz
Member
Hi, I don't know how to start this....
Well. I'm new here obviously, but I've been a member of other message boards before and still frequent one of those sometimes about self injury. I joined one on abuse but I've found it to be too triggering for me....so, I'm hoping to fit in here. I suppose I am just looking for people to communicate withh because I have zero friends in real life--too hard to be around people--and because I deal with a lot of psychological issues. I also find psychology very interesting so that's another reason I joined here.
I'm 29 and a female, and my dxes are Bipolar Disorder, Borderline Personality Disorder, PTSD and Social Anxiety Disorder. I was diagnosed with all those except the PTSD about 10 years ago, and the PTSD was diagnosed as I eventually began to tell the professsioonals about things that have hapopened to me. I take Trileptal, Geodon, Welbutrin and Trazadone, and I guess they're working for some of my problems. I haven't had a manic episode in years at least. But other then relief from mania, I still am struggling a lot--I'd almost like to feel some mania sometimes. I have been seeing my current therapist for 4 years and I feel like I can trust her, although i still have a lot of fear when I tell her somethng new about myself. It wasn't until about a year ago that I finally felt what trust feels like which was when I realized I could actually trust her---it was scary on one hand, but it also felt so freeing in a way. I just started seeing a new psychiatrist a few months ago, so I don't know about her yet, but I think she's nice at least. I also go to a Bipolar support group that my therapist holds twice a month. I guess another reason I joined here is because I am sooooo attached to my therapist right now and I need some kind of support between sessions becaue I miss her so much inbetween when I see her. It's really unhealthy I think (how I feel about her) but I don;t know how to feel less attached to her. I feel so abnormal abotu that.
Well, I don't know what else to say...I hope I haven't scared anyone away wiht my ramblings...i look forward to posting here and meeting everyone!
Well. I'm new here obviously, but I've been a member of other message boards before and still frequent one of those sometimes about self injury. I joined one on abuse but I've found it to be too triggering for me....so, I'm hoping to fit in here. I suppose I am just looking for people to communicate withh because I have zero friends in real life--too hard to be around people--and because I deal with a lot of psychological issues. I also find psychology very interesting so that's another reason I joined here.
I'm 29 and a female, and my dxes are Bipolar Disorder, Borderline Personality Disorder, PTSD and Social Anxiety Disorder. I was diagnosed with all those except the PTSD about 10 years ago, and the PTSD was diagnosed as I eventually began to tell the professsioonals about things that have hapopened to me. I take Trileptal, Geodon, Welbutrin and Trazadone, and I guess they're working for some of my problems. I haven't had a manic episode in years at least. But other then relief from mania, I still am struggling a lot--I'd almost like to feel some mania sometimes. I have been seeing my current therapist for 4 years and I feel like I can trust her, although i still have a lot of fear when I tell her somethng new about myself. It wasn't until about a year ago that I finally felt what trust feels like which was when I realized I could actually trust her---it was scary on one hand, but it also felt so freeing in a way. I just started seeing a new psychiatrist a few months ago, so I don't know about her yet, but I think she's nice at least. I also go to a Bipolar support group that my therapist holds twice a month. I guess another reason I joined here is because I am sooooo attached to my therapist right now and I need some kind of support between sessions becaue I miss her so much inbetween when I see her. It's really unhealthy I think (how I feel about her) but I don;t know how to feel less attached to her. I feel so abnormal abotu that.
Well, I don't know what else to say...I hope I haven't scared anyone away wiht my ramblings...i look forward to posting here and meeting everyone!