I've lost a crazy number of people in the past couple years to suicide. I found out about another one today.
As someone who struggles with my own mental health issues, these events are very triggering for me. A part of me always mourns the loss of the person, but another part of me admires their courage in being able to do something I'd like to but can't. It starts an inner battle in me...wishing I could, knowing I can't. At least not right now. But oh how I wish I could.
I can't really avoid these triggers. They get posted to my wall, I see them in groups, I get text messages...and avoidance isn't really the solution. People die.
It just brings such conflicted emotions to me. It's hard. Really hard.
As someone who struggles with my own mental health issues, these events are very triggering for me. A part of me always mourns the loss of the person, but another part of me admires their courage in being able to do something I'd like to but can't. It starts an inner battle in me...wishing I could, knowing I can't. At least not right now. But oh how I wish I could.
I can't really avoid these triggers. They get posted to my wall, I see them in groups, I get text messages...and avoidance isn't really the solution. People die.
It just brings such conflicted emotions to me. It's hard. Really hard.